i wan to runaway and die

2009-09-12T22:40:00.000+08:00

sayang,
ku dihantui bayanganmu
kasih,
ku impikan untuk bersamamu

sayang,
kau yang terbaik
kasih,
kau yang terindah

sayang,
ku tahu kau setia
kasih,
kau bagai sebuah lukisan imaginasiku

sayang,
ingin sekali aku setia sepertimu
kasih,
aku tak yakin dengan dirimu

sayang,
ada masa ku merindukanmu
kasih,
tiap kali ku mendambakanmu

wahai sayang,
wahai kasih,
ku tak berdaya lagi
untuk melawan perasanku

maafkan aku,
aku tidak dapat memilih antara dua
maafkan aku,
aku terpaksa membelah bagi cintaku
-sandy Dyaa

~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!

alright, this holiday week has been quite fruitful.
been helping mum with the house cleaning and kuih-making
also, brushing up on my Amaths.
tonight's menu will be humanities.
while that, been texting with my dear best friend :P
main topics were Amath, the past etc.
that guy's whack, seriously.
and oh,
i took Mr.D's quiz on Fb, n i passed it.
how shocking.
Mr.D say he don't like me for passing it.
i said, its ok.. i didnt ask him to like me.
and the rest of the convo is btwn me and him. :D

oh shucks, i been lazy to update this blog of mine.
im still considering whether to switch to other kind of weblog.

and oh, i am an official HYDIRIFIK weeee~

2009-09-03T12:29:00.004+08:00

hello earthlings.

i may not use blogger anymore. im real frustrated everytime blogger cock up.

anyway, Photos of RABIATUL ADAWIYAH's 16th Birthday. i had a blast. shall upload some of the photos here while the rest are on facebook. let the photos and captions tell the story.

feat afeeee Darling :D

feat iman & afeeee Darling

from left : afee, rabia, fina & meeeeee :)

place: cineleisure lvl 8
fina vs me; weee~

i had a blast even it was my first ! thanks finaa for teaching me :D

place: banquet Raffles Hospital
BUKE TIME ! jyeah !

place: somewhere around bugis. aint sure where.
Girls night out ?! weeee~

place: Going Om at one of the lanes around bugis.
thanks fee for bringing us here! im loving it!
n ya above: lazing around with bdae gal.

girls photo again !

n again ! hahaha

olright ! im gone from here ..

2009-08-29T23:48:00.000+08:00

ouhkay. short update. nothing much happen except school. so i shall not talk about it.

this coming tuesday is Ms Rabiatul Adawiyah's birthday. so we, as in, Rabia, Fee, Fina and i will be celebrating it on monday. n NO, rabia, i will not reveal what will happen, here. you cant know, my lips are sealed. haha. the problem now is that each of us are to bring a date along. n yikes, i still havent find one. Rabia ask me to bring Zuan, but i aint sure if he is free. i was thinking of Syahmi too, but images of his mum haunting me. hahahha. ohh wells, idk how. its almost sunday now. im so so dead. let's just pray that Zuan is free. im really in need of him. besides, i miss him. so Zuan, SOS! please !!

ok, other than that, PRELIMINARY EXAMINATIONS ! coming very very soon. im confident of passing all my subjects except social studies. i still dont get Source based qn. how do we do it? let's hope by reading the ans keys, i will absorb the pattern and style to answer the question.

ok, its a minute before sunday. good night .

2009-08-21T22:34:00.000+08:00

The magic number of the week : ONE

firstly, i got back my O-level MT result. syukur alhamdullilah, i got A1 with distinction for Oral. it is a very good news for i have secure a lesser pt, compared to, if i got a A2 or worst. im sorry for my friends who did not manage to get A1. cheer up. if you do decide to retake, i will be here to help you in anyway.

secondly, i and my friends had a game of floorball. at first, it's the Chinese girls VS the Malay Girls. but later on, some of us decide to go to the other team to help them score. the final score, 11 to 1. that's a triple one. hahaha.. even with Mr Joe helping them, they still did not score. tsk2.

thirdly, i had the english Oral today. the First english paper. i am the fourth person to be tested, which means im the first person to go home straight away(if you guys know what i mean0. the whole thing was on Disabled children and the new facilities tt allow them to enjoy life.

olrite, enough about number one.

i change my blog skin( Finally !). the theme was on Childhood and how kids nowadays are dressing so fashionably.

today is Firdaus' birthday. He turn ten. to celebrate it, i bake cupcakes for him. damn, the icing is not suppose to melt. but, it turn out okay. im glad his friends love it, unlike some people who have nothing to do. As if HE can do a much better cupcake.
to the idiot who hina my cupcakes, i dont need it. you too wont like it if i turn nasty. i wont care if we had a past la.

2009-08-14T14:26:00.004+08:00

hello earthlings.

been bloghopping for the past half an hour. i realised that the will-have topic in every blog is LOVE. even in mine. i wonder why. it got me thinking..

what is love? why do we love someone or something. i mean, for families and friends, yeah fine.. we have to deal with that in order to live life right.. im talking about love for the someone special. i been into alot of relationships. but today, in front of the monitor, i asked myself, "what is love? is it really love that i have been experiencing since my first relationship? do i mean it when i say 'i love you' to my partner? if i do mean it, what is the meaning of it?". according to my phone dictionary, Love means deep affection or fondness. i quickly ask myself, what is affection and fondness then? again, my dictionary give me the answer. Affection means fondness, fondness means liking. okay.. people say love and like is two different thing.. but after checking the meanings, i could form a word equation.
love =affection =fondness =liking..er, =like ?
would that mean that love = like?
i go on with life, meeting various kind of people. some treat love like royalty- caring for it so much. some treat it like junk- never really taking relationship seriously.when it comes to love, some can also be a little crazy- even gone, still waiting for it to return. some can also selfish and harsh- as if love dosen't involve any feelings that will be hurt along the way.. but for me, i just want a decent love though i know its impossible to not get hurt.
everybody goes through this cycle.
know-> like-> love-> happiness and heartbreaks-> break ups-> friends/enemies
the after effect, sometimes people will be scared to fall in love again. some will quickly move on with others. some will go, 'ohh wells, its over' and continue living life. the extreme cases are either they kick the bucket prematurely, or they pester their previous partners(stalk, haunt etc).

okay.. enough thinking and wondering.. back to reality, dyaa!

so school as per normal. next week is one important week. i will be getting back my Olevel MT papers and will be going through my Olevel Eng Oral Examinations. Next saturday: fasting month begins. shouldn't be a problem to me because i have been paying back my fast these days. 72days to olevel Eng Exams and others.. ahhh..!
the ultiimate wish on everyone taking National Exams: to get it over and done with, quickly and with good results.

ahh.. Woodgrove Idol is coming.. this year's going to be a tough competition. many good ones have entered. congrats to Khalil, Khalis, Ain and others who have make it to the next round!

olrite, im done with blogging now. gorte hit the books !

2009-08-08T20:52:00.001+08:00

hello earthlings.

its the eve of National Day !
to singaporeans, happy National Day !

yesterday;
school celebration start with a lil parade by our very own uniform group. P2IC was Ean. im proud of you ! the whole parade was lead by asyran. well done. credit goes to Jasper for training them in just a day. overall, the parade was well done. WGSRCY & WGSUG, im so proud of you guys !
following that was captain's ball game for the graduating classes. it was okay la. the real drama happen when one of the 4T student hurt her knee. Daryl tried his best to immobilise the knee while i ran around school trying to find another bandange to stabilise it. the drama got even more 'interesting' when we had to evacuate her to the cousillor room using the stretcher. Afifah, Wei Han, Junru & me form the stretcher team. it was quite an experience for me even though i have done it quite some time.
the outcome of the drama: she was sent to clinic. for me, i suffered a shoulder injury as the casualty was quite of a big size lady. i dont blame her, its my job as a First Aider.

to the two immature girls who keep insulting me, i will like to thank you. i know that you would like to see me get angry, but i wont. in fact, the reason im thanking you is that you make me a more patient person and everytime you insult me, your pahala is mine. so, thank you !

on a lighter note, o-level MT paper result will be out very soon. ahhhh.. nervous but what i can do is just to pray hard and tawakal. .

went to the newly renovated geylang serai just now. its still not that spacious. went to tanjong katong complex. i saw HYDIR IDRIS !! the reason im feeling so sore till now is that i did not take a picture with him eventhough he was a just few inches away from me. ARGH! i cant believe i let the opportunity go just like that. ohh wells, i will meet him again someday, insyallah(:

about the state of confusion, im done with it.
new goal: DONT look back at a new direction, AGAIN.
its all about the present and the future now.
getting to know more about 'Arif was interesting.
to quote my baby brother, who is his friend, "he's like the male you."

this blog will only be updated once a week due to O-Level preparation :]
good night.

2009-07-31T20:33:00.003+08:00

31st July 2009- AMK Hub

there are so many things i want to update but this freaking blogger is not coperating with me.
since that's the case, i would just update about two stuff.

- Adam Khoo's Workshop
- love

Adam khoo's Workshop
'i am gifted, so are you !'. i went to this course feeling neutral, not expecting what would happen. but it was out of the world. my greatest gratitude to my 3 trainers. Gary(the boss of all the trainers), Benjamin(or BONG) and Eric(the sound man), all of you are the reason that make me hurry to school for the past 3 days. truly, i miss you guys, even today- just a day after the course ended. Gary's session was more on answering our questions and giving us more stuff(mind you, it include things that the other classes do not get). Bong's session was a very emotional one, especially for the last two days. words can't describe much what i really go through. But Bong, thanks for sharing us the video on The Secret. i started believing in it, and it work wonders. Also, thanks for giving me the nick of HANTU GIGI. -.- Yesterday's graduation ceremony was a very emotional period for all of us. as Leroy(4E1 trainer) said, 'we smiled and cried together the past few days.'. true enough, we did. i cant believe i cried alot for i'm not the one who cry infront of everybody. Also, Faan, as i said to you, im sorry. i understand your situation now. bottom line: i miss my trainers and the course really brought the best in me.

Love life
i hate to talk about this. i have remove 'Arif's photo. well, not that i dont like him. i do. but i am feeling super confused. i-think-some-of-you-know-why is the reason why. both of them are equally good, only that one in madrasah and the other in normal school. so,i think im going with my ustazah cum friend's advice to solat istihara. i really hope i get the answer to this soon, i hate the confused feeling. eventhough i know the other dont really care about my apperance in his life, i still want to be, even as a friend. after all, i have tasted his hurtings, so im immune to it. as for the one, let it just flow. i waited a years plus before meeting him so waiting to be with him is something i also immune too.
thank god, MR.D has decided to be with other girlS. that leave me with one lesser prob. weeee....

okay, im done with updating.

today;
sch. had to do the group essay alone as my two partner MIA. take care arynaDearest and sidz. PE was the craziest period. ran two rounds outside school. played badminton for some 10mins and got bored. ran around school with IraaSweet for another two rounds. its like punishment. lol. after recess, had 2 amaths test- roots and polynomials. i had the advice from the Secret in mind, doing the test papers so fluently. i passed both! yeah yeah! after school is chem extra booster. bused with sherra. trained to AMK to have lunch and shop. bought Durian Puffs from Four Season. delicious! my favourite! went home...

i want to change my blogskin, its getting boring.
shall start thinking about the layout and theme while watching cite cineeee

2009-07-17T15:30:00.002+08:00

i finally realise the meaning to TGIF.

the week has been oh so tiring with school ending at 4 everyday. i finally understand how the irsyadians felt with their curriculum time(mind you!) ending at 4. no wonder Fyr looks tired everyday.

anyway, lessons has been quite intensive. with all the subjects ending the syllabus, past year test papers has been my best friend. everyday, i had to practice with it. on the other hand, i cut and perm my hair on monday, which is already featured on my previous post and on my tagged profile. to people who simply cant stop their mouth from saying the bad stuff, i appreciate if you dont say it in front of me. i may be smiling but i aint happy with your attitude. its my hair. it dosent bother you how i look. probably, you're just jealous that my hair's beautiful and your's aint.

another group of people just refuse to let me lead my life peacefully. truthfully, i didnt not disturb you so why are you calling me names? like mummy say, if you are that of a beauty, like an angel, then its ok. but you are not. so stop it before my patience max out. even if i did make some trouble with your frenn.. that was two years ago. and why is that you are the one holding the grudge. don't behave like a primary school kid. you almost out of secondary school, so behave like one.

i been wanting to be that good lady. i know that 'Arif dont like me to behave like some crazy monkey. so here i am, trying to pick up myself and behaving well. and thanks to these people, im suck back into the world that i used to be in.

ok, cooling down....

i want to get some benefits from the weekend. to slack a little and do slightly more revision on my sciences. of that reason, i decide to not to go to irsyad today, to pick up Fyr (and kill another bird with the same stone). Im missing 'Arif alot. its bugging me when im alone, usually in the bus or at home. so, to kill the pain, i googled for any irsyadee's stuff and watch their music videos on youtube. i watch the clip on his arabic debate, like again. haha. but, thank allah, it did not bug me during school hours. anw, i have to thank 'Arif for making my relationship with Fyr closer. i cant believe that i and Fyr finally have sibling talks, something that we never did before.

all right now, i want to surf the net for a little while before i start mugging. (:

2009-07-14T18:17:00.006+08:00

Dengan ketentuhan illahi,

Tiada siapa dapat melawani

Perasaan yang aku ada untukmu,

Ia juga luar kawalanku.

Buat sebentar aku tertanya,

Bolehkah aku bersabar dengan dugaanNya

Acapkali kau nyatakan sebaliknya,

Sedangkan apa yang terjadi tidak seburuk mana

Kau buat ku pergi dengan kekerasan,

Akan selalu aku ingat,

Kekejaman yang kau beri,

Yang mengundang kesedihan.

kini aku bersendiri.

Namun tidak bersedih

Kerna cinta baru yang berputik,
Mengisi kekosongan hati ini.

-Sandy Dyaa

2009-07-14T17:56:00.004+08:00

talking anonymously..

one dont understand how another could misjudge situation. one admit that within one and another, they have alot of misunderstandings which cause a period of them being almost enemies. one admit that alot of the misunderstandings also caused by one not explaining the situation to another. but, it has come to a point when one know that nothing one do could salvage the relationship one once have with another.

since that is what another thinks is happening, one shall accept that point of view.
afterall, it's beyond one's control.

'Salah faham boleh keruhkan air jernih percintaan'
-sanDy Dyaa

2009-07-12T19:47:00.005+08:00

Assalamualaikum.

hee. instead of the usual 'hello earthlings', i replace it with something so simple yet sweet.
today's post is all about the irsyad's family carnival and Food Fiesta over at madrasah Al-irsyad.

firstly, the food was expensive. truely, i know its for charity but it is a little tad too expensive.
secondly, i saw MR Faris. like woah! apparently, one of his sons is schooling there, just like my bro.
thirdly, the most important of all, i finally meet

MUHAMMAD 'ARIF TAN !
ok, from this sentence onwards, it be all about him, so bear with it. (:

the video of his nasyid boyband, IRSYADEE, performing just now.

he's the one in blue.

since there's no people who is perfect,

i say he is the almost-perfect guy.

why?

he got the looks, the knowledge-both duniawi and uhkrawi, he sings, he debate in arabic language, well, the list could go on.

17 this year, taking his o-level.

what is there else to say?

er, yeah, i took a picture with him, which i will replace the picture of you-know-who, which i have removed, on my profile space.

of course, he is the guy example who fits everything on my mr right list and even more, but even that i don't wish for anything.

ohh ya, his fav singer, Hafiz Hamidun, performed too.

now, i understand why Arif' likes him so much. he has gained my likeness too,

after singing the song, Hanya Tuhan Yang Tahu by UNIC.

below is the lyrics to the song;

Kupendamkan perasaan ini
Kurahsiakan rasa hati ini
Melindungkan kasih yang berputik
Tersembunyi di dasar hati

Kupohonkan petunjuk Illahi
Hadirkanlah insan yang sejati
Menemani kesepian ini
Mendamaikan sekeping hati

Oh Tuhanku berikanlah ketenangan abadi
Untukku menghadapi resahnya hati ini
Mendambakan kasih insan yang kusayang

Di hati ini hanya Tuhan yang tahu
Di hati ini aku rindu padamu
Tulus sanubari menantikan hadirmu
Hanyalah kau gadis pilihanku

Kerana batasan waktu
Adat dan syariat
Menguji kekuatan keteguhan iman
Insan yang berkasih

go and listen, im sure you guys love it too.

olrite, i shall stop here. (=

2009-07-10T21:14:00.002+08:00

hello earthlings.

i hven been updating much.
just plain lazy and busy mugging.

currently listening to sembunyi by sleeq.
the song is addictive and i love the meanings to the lyrics.

well, as far as i could recall, nth much happen.
sch, sch, sch.
oh, i had the MT olvl oral yesterday.
it was about teens' anger management.
i find my ans to the conversation questions
are actually funny. i cant believe i said all that.
but, overall, i think i did fairly well.
iraaDarling says that male teacher look like
someone from kadir&kadir. Crap la kamu ..

two days back, it was 8th of July 2009.
it's arwah kak Fidah's birthday.
ohh, if she was still alive, she'll be 17yrs old.
i truly miss her.
been wanting to visit her graveyard.
will be soon .

n today, its mysherra Darling's birthday!
yey, she's finally 16.
n also, temanku Luthfi.
happy birthday too ey !

2009-07-10T15:04:00.005+08:00

"Mengertikah engkau perasaanku tak terhapuskan
..
Aku terlanjur cinta kepadamu
Dan tlah ku berikan seluruh hatiku
..
Aku pun tak mengerti yang terjadi
Apa salah dan kurang ku padamu
Kini terlambat sudah untuk dipersalahkan
Karna sekali cinta aku tetap cinta "

-snippets of the lyrics

2009-07-06T21:08:00.002+08:00

hello earthlings.

i had a blast.

i really cant believe it.

i spent another day shopping at town again
i shall shorten the post cause i got lots of work to do.

necklace (see above) from Click Six

dress from Gab

heels from Sole Lover

i'm all black today.

mummy says its like 'berkabung' which means in sadness.

see the plaster on my right foot?

i hurt myself while trying on new heels.

two inches long. eeouch!

is she cute or what?

one salesgirl just stuck the hairband on her head and start playing with her.

zzz.

2009-07-04T22:59:00.002+08:00

hello earthlings.

today was awesome.

morning;

went out to stadium

meet iraa, rah & fyqa

chit chat first cause there's too many people for us to run

went for 5rounds around the stadium.

so happy!

later, had to pick up Fyr.

walked all the way to rah's 962 bustop, which is near civic.

pick up Fyr and went to have breakfast at KFC.

well. it was worth it since i didnt eat anything before going to stadium.

my muscles were in pain due to today's stadium & yest's PE workout.

reached home, bath and changed to new set of clothing

and off to grams house at boon lay.

afternoon;

spent it at boon lay. laze around with e-raaDarling.

grams cook my favourite - soup!

at 3+, went out to town.

evening;

reached orchard at around 5+.

1st stop; isetan.

browse around agnes b. 's things.

ahh.. i love the bag and shoe.

superb nice.

but i got to control my spendings.

next, saw nike's shoe.

dammit. nice too.

but still, i controlled myself.

searched for dad's present.

from timberland to Springfield to HE by Mango,

there's nth that caught mummy's eye.

so went for early dinner at McD.

argh, fastfood again!

had McSpicy.

thankfully, the fats from the fastfood was killed through walks around town with heels.

thank god, too, i choose the 1inch heels instead of the 3inch heels.

hahhaha.

reached taka.

bought slim cut jeans from MNG by mango.

lovin it to the max larhs!

proceed to find dad's present again.

by that time, im happy with my jeans that i dont care a hoot about what brand mummy bought for dad.

went to paragon's starbucks to laze around with my dear caramel frappe.

went home by taxi.

texted with Mr. D. whack guy.

he offer to sponsor my spendings.

but i told him, he will regret it cause i will spend alot.

tapi kaya kan, sapa kesah *evil thought*

LoL.

im tired out.

but still got to study for the test tomorrow.

dangs!

2009-07-03T23:06:00.002+08:00

short update today cause im so tired.

had school.bla3
went home with afifah.
crazy la my twinnie.
we couldnt stop laughing.
took 962 home.
meet faiz& frens at the bustop.
another crazy bunch.
in the bus, mummyDarling holla.
told me to go to bishan.
the plan was to go shopping and lunch.
but nth caught my eye so i just purchase a new earring.
waited for fyr for 45mins.
so pissed off till no appetite.
went back to smbw.
fyr had his lunch and hsh.
tmr gg stadium so i gorte sleep !

2009-07-01T17:41:00.002+08:00

to greatest nemesis: yeah i have remove it! thank god. i seen the real you.

all this while, i thought i really could not let you go. but now, i know i have.
im so happy ! its like a burden off me. yeah!
so yeah, bugger off. i know you happy to do so.

now, buhbye !

2009-06-29T21:25:00.006+08:00

hello earthlings.
its the start of school today.
yeap, term 3. yikes !

so reached school damn early.
spent the morning finishing my book,
'shopaholic ties the knot' by sophie kinsella.
i took longer time with eng books, erm, abt a day.

so did temp taking the second time.. bla3
get the new time table.
i thought 3 periods eng was woah.
now i will hv 4 periods of Amaths every wed.
with MT almost gone, i feel like my subj are so little now.
hahah.

recess. got the annoucement that we have to sit on the tables located for our class in the canteen.
i mean, what is that for?? h1n1 procedure too? its getting weird ey.

eng. for the first time this year, i actually like shortiee's teaching. hahaha.
she smile alot and crack up alot. nice. i hope she stays that way. amin.
skip3.
geog. here's a huge huge annoucement,
" I NEED MS YATI BACK!"
mr koh say that ms yati wont be teaching e3. sobsob.
how am i gg to pass with A1 for my geog, now that my motivation's gone.
ms yati, ms yati, come back to e3.
god, i sound so desperate.

anw, everytime i said "nak ms yati" farah will say " nak clorets"
she been wanting that sweet from morning. amirul got so irritated with us. hahah.

started coach. emaths' .
wasnt hard. sorry syukriah.
im suck at teaching today. not having any mood to teach.
apologies again.

went home with sidz.
i saw that money face in the bus.
urgh!! cant he take another bus?
mood swings.
talked to sidz about irfaya.

actually, im tired of waiting.
im emotionally tired. seriously.
but i cant forget him.

benarkah kau tiada lagi cinta?

terus teranglah, aku pinta

kini ku hanya dapat berserah,

walau hati ini masih berdarah

sehari kau beri senyuman,

walau tidak mesra, namun masih seorang teman

sehari kau beri tenungan seram,

mengapa kau begitu kejam?

kau permainkan cinta murni,

yang ku beri dengan rela hati

mungkin kau bukan seorang lelaki

kerana kau jantan yang khianati cinta suci

semamangnya aku sedar,

mungkin cintamu senang pudar,

namun cinta yang pernah kau beri,

tidak dapat aku buang pergi

-Sandy Dyaa

2009-06-28T01:26:00.002+08:00

hello earthlings.
its 1.26am now.
i just finish doing my skin.
felt that it's damn plain.
still finding codes to add effects to it.
i cant get the dynamicdrive codes working.
dammit.
btw, links are currently unavailable.
due to i have yet to update most of my friends' links.

thanks Abid for waiting for me to finish this thing up.
aww.. sweetkan kawanku ni.

on the other side,

congrats iraa for finally getting my cuzin.

last long oke.

im happy for you.

Don't worry about me.

im okay, i will be.

now, good night.

2009-06-25T22:50:00.004+08:00

i love love love the movie !

5 stars!!

well, watched it at cineleisure yesterday,

which is the day of release and i love it alot !

go check it out.

on the akward side, im like walking down bad memory lane yesterday.

cineleisure is my hangout with the idiot moneyface.

so its hard for me.

anw, to make it more horrible, i have to go to plaza singapura.

that's the last place i went with fie.

flashback of the old memories caused mood swings.

after more than 6mths not stepping in there, i still cant face it.

i know my dress is like outstandingly pink

but, to the guys outside burger king and in the theater,

stop staring.

alhamdulilah, i know im pretty (:

today;

cuzins came to my house.

mum made me buy things at Giant.

omg, its so heavy that my hands were all red.

"kesetiaan serta kasih sayang tidak menjanjikan kebahagian"

-tragedi cinta by achik & nana

& happy what-meant-to-be-2nd month, irfaya. (:

2009-06-23T22:12:00.003+08:00

inaDearest, amcm kau nyer kereta kat sini?

heheh.

hello earthlings.
i shall update about yesterday since nth much happen today.

at 12.30, went out to meet SisterMaz to bring my deary aliyyah for jab.
had to go to geylang polyclinic. along the way, people love to touch my raw nerves.
firstly, the lady bus driver. What is your problem with my niece's stroller?
"must close, must close"
idiot, cant you see she's asleep.
tak berhati perut betul nie ppm.
n thanks to you, my niece woke up.
dumb-er-diot lurh..
secondly, not enough that im so frustrated with driver,
some old man stepped on my foot.
in case you forget, being old did not pardon you for not apologising oke.
& you should be glad i did not swear out loud at you.
thirdly, the nurse or helper at the polyclinic entrance.
"only one person can accompany her"
i did not come all the way from sembawang to sit outside geylang polyclinic while my niece got her jab. dammit.

anyway, shopping do cheer me up.
went to This Fashion at aljunied.
that's heaven on earth for me.
so huge, so much clothes to choose.
pick out 6 clothing to try on.
brought 3.
a hot pink dress, a bright blue blouse and white flowery skirt.
wee~
after discount, it cost 50+.
eeouch! but nvm.
head off to bugis.
adq want to buy some art stuff called spray art.
grabbed it and bused home.

today;

Happy 16th Birthday FYQA !!

4yrs friendship and continues. yeah us !

anugerah. im so so happy that Hydir makes to the next level.

Wee~ lag best, he top the guys. jyeah!

syabas la Hydir. i will continue supporting you!

going out again tomorrow. argh..

but so happy because will be watching Transformers: revenge of the Fallen.

i got emaths, amaths and geog homework. so probably, i will start on the lighter one which is amaths, followed by geog and finally emaths.

as much as i want school to be delayed, i need school cause my brains work more with school.

" the worst mistake a guy can do is to leave a lady without notice

cause she will remember it throughout her whole life"

the reason why i said guy and not man is because a true man wont do that. (:

2009-06-21T22:28:00.007+08:00

by fyr.

hello earthlings.

will be a short post today .

HAPPY FATHERS' DAY, AYAH.

although you always throw your temper,

but i guess you just want the best for me.

brownie from Polar Cakes.

bought dad an adidas dry fit shirt.

i hope it fits. cause i think i bought L instead of M.

heheh. i suck at buying men's clothes.

went tuition just now.

and i tell you, someone's peragai really need to control.

don't go near him and flirt can?

dammit. buzz off. go find ure own man, idiot.

dr aku gd mood, trus mood rabak.

slamat aku tak serang kau sia.

anw, i thought i Am over you, but apparently, i am not.

being jealous over her behaviour towards you proves i cant let go of yet.

DAMMIT.

i took a facebook quiz just now on my life and love based on my birthdate.

on life, not so true.

on love, so damn true. exp on the cause of fights, smth i also wonder why .

"Your Love : You can tell what's in the mind of another person just from looking into his/her eyes. You are paranoid and jealous and these are the cause of fights between you and your lover. Sometimes the thing you believe in is just your imagination."

ohh well, good night .

2009-06-19T16:19:00.002+08:00

im beginning to have sudden crave for lil miss naughty.

for one, its purple.

two, so cute

three, its purple. hahah.

anyway, i been trying to study but movie marathons are not helping.

since yesterday, i been sitting in front of the tv, watching movies after movies.

from 17again to night at the museum 2, to hannah montana movie and confession of a shopaholic.

i saw the continuation books to confession of shopaholic story.

i thought i want to splurge on the two books but i rmb the library, hehehe.

anyway, im currently juggling too many stuff.

helping hidayah3 with ulp, chatting with emma, figuring out right ideas for skins, helping mum with cooking.

eeouch!

im out of here.

2009-06-18T11:22:00.002+08:00

hello earthlings.

i love this book!

bought it yesterday at JB's popular.

and as expected. i finish the 400+ pg book in about 9hrs.

jyeah.

its really detailed.

as i read the book, i imagined myself as the character.

and i found myself smiling, crying, laughing alone.

crack much? jyeah! hahah

iraa, if you read this, go check it out!

i gurantee you love it too.

yesterday;

spent my morning and afternoon at JB.

the day start with breakfast at some shop near GiantXtra.

funny convo between my fam and the waiter;

W: nak air ape?

Dad: dayah, nak air ape?

Me: erm, horlick ice? ice horlick? uhm, ya.

W: ape? ape?

Me: ice horlick.

(wrote it down)

W: mkn?

Me: uhm, 1 set roti jala?

dad: 4 keping prata kosong dan 1 prata telur

W: repeat the order

(he miss out my roti jala)

dad: 1 set roti jala.

W: oh okok.

when the drinks came....

some weird looking drink with ice for me.

my eyes was practically staring it with ' wtheck is this' thinking.

another waiter came.

W2: adq order ape?

me: ice horlick

W: oh, bkn ice HALIA?

(give him the diao look. why would i drink halia early in the morning? gross much!)
so nvm. got my ice horlick .

waited the helloflongtime to get our food.

and its damn bleuq!

how could you have roti jala with fish curry??

its inedible larhs.

but nvm. mum told me to be patient with this !&%@

heard off to Larkin to purchase my daily vitamins.

bought magazine. the owner is so funny.

he was looking for his calculator when his calculator was just beside him.

then off to giant for some stuff.

bought my novel(above)

did monthly shopping.

i love my junk foods!

had lunch and hsh.

sent the other half of day reading the novel.

so, i been thinking..

i cant get my holidays go to waste.

enough fun.

i got to start cracking on revision,

exp on physics.

i dont understand mr flavian's teaching.

uhm, to-do-list for this holiday;

InaDearest's blogskin
revision notes
booster homework

that will the top priorities.

im done. maybe will update again later.

2009-06-16T22:40:00.007+08:00

hello earthlings.
i got an announcement;

" my face is lobster red !"

hahaha. i dont need blusher for my cheeks anymore. my nose is like Randolph's. heheh.

all this is due to a day at Palawan beach. eeouch!

see below,

and this is just after the swim.

its already so pinkish-red.

and this after the shower.yikes. already quite red.

so the journey start with me and adq trained to boon lay to meet the rest.

went off to sentosa. kecoh siow my little cuzins.

trammed to pahlawan beach.

find a spot and changed to my swimming outfit.

cleverness of dyaa and her mum result in bringing white clothes.

end up, its the same as me wearing bikini top.

diaodiao.

had lots of fun. aunt shiken was real blast today!

by evening, packed up and went home.

BUT its not the end yefter aunt nabira sent grams home at boon lay, she offer to send me home.

so ok, save ezlink aku. haha

however, i end up having to take the train at paya lebar when she sesat.

diao.

in the end, i tour around singapore.

from sentosa(south), to boon lay(west), to paya lebar(east) and finally, sembawang (north).

grr.. best kn..

by the time i reach sembawang, i like super tired and super sian.

so, otp with Fiq.

reached home and watched anugerah.

i like Hydir larhhs..

told Fiq and he said he saw Hydir at some competition before.

and he won! cool kn..

okeh, i really beat.

gorte hit the sack.

i wish that's a guy giving me a kiss. haha

but no.

that's my darlingE-raa.

(see how red my face is, by the time i went home)

good nights.

2009-06-15T12:05:00.003+08:00

i been giving it a serious thought but truth is, i really don't know.

i been wanting to give up waiting for him,

but i cant find an0ther guy who is as almost-perfect as him.

he has one most important thing i want in a guy - religious.

maybe, just maybe, if i find another guy like him,

i will actually give him up and move on.

yesterday is 14th june.

i just realised that it's been a month since he's gone.

and in 5days time,er, 20th june,

it be my 4th month waiting.

also, by 25th june,

it will be what supposed to be our 2nd month.

oh gosh.

13th june; - iRaaDarling's birthday!

went out at 11+, reach cwp, pick up her present at minitoons,

went for tuition, was kinde late, but ohh wells.

after tuition, went to her block to pick her up.

didnt have any plan but quickly create one.

trained to smbw, take shuttle bus to SSC.

went around, and had lunch at banquet signature.

the chicken rice was bleuq!

took the shuttle bus again, this time to northpoint.

we got no purpose actually.

went around the 2nd wing.

my hands got itchy to buy something

so i bought a belt( like finally)

i like . i like .

grey colour with grey flower. wee~

sent iraa to her aunt's house.

they having some celebration for her birthday.

and i bused home.
Glad she love the huge Mr happy plush toy,

from me, rah and sheera.

---

i want to edit my skin. i been wanting to. like long ago but i got no inspiration. diaodiao.

ohh wells, im out !

2009-06-12T20:09:00.003+08:00

i hate it when i get that sudden pain.

no, more like a need.

on lonely nights like this, i miss you like crazy.
im smiling on the outside

but my heart is really feeling the pain,

the sudden need to text you and be around you.

i hate it alot

because i know i have to control it.

but, it seems that i cant.

why oh why.

oh allah, help me hold on.

give me patience to control this.

seeing your photos on fcbk just now,

how i long to be around you.

i miss you, dont you know?

and the burning qn here is that, do you too?

im at my wits end.

i really do not know how to convince you

that my love for you is never ending.

be bck. emotionally unstable now.

\edited !

i feeling better right now.

erm, update abt today.

went to sch in the morning only to realise that i dont hv SS boaster

so went with the rest to cwp mac for breakfast.

mysheera say i crazy.

1)take so many tissue

2)use the tissue to dry the oily hashbrown

3)use two straw to drink

4)forget to buy iraa's drink, so went to counter again.

5)rah told her that i drank coke with salt.

im suprised you find me crazy. i know im not the only who do such stuff okey.

bused back to sch. start geog.

funfunfun, geog is always loved thx to ms yati !

supposed to hv amaths but teacher cancelled it last minute.

so bused to cwp again.

thanks chriss for layaning me through sms.

whack guy. talked about amaths and the past.

meet my dearest e-raa. imhsm.

dah lame tak jumpe kn. bring her around cwp.

taxied home with the rest of the family.

kecohness of aunt ain and grams is real .

i lyke . i lyke .

dearest e-raa went home with aunt ain and grams after maghrib.

the house became so quiet again.

which result in the above situation.

text him.

do you know your reply mean darn lot to me??

thanks.

when i am with you, i must always have the mindset of 'expect the unexpected'

good night.

PS; fell asleep before replying?

2009-06-11T22:19:00.002+08:00

hello earthlings.

short update about today;

had eng and amaths.

was late for eng, didnt do it purposely,

i missed the bus.diao.

did amaths stuff.

basically, nothing new learnt today.

went home with iraa. she sent me home.

we talked about the abstruse beings who have a place in our heart

all the way to smbw.

iraa fell in love with mr happy for so long. but now tt it's known, she want to get rid of the feelings. i think he is mean to give hope to iraa and bomb! say bye2. typical aint it, just like his fren. iraa was there whether he is happy or down but he just destroy the beautiful image iraa paint of him. as a middle person, i cant side him or iraa cause both of them are important. iraa's my darling, he is my, uhm, let's just say someone close. iraa said she now just thankful if she could be his friend. to top it off, im actually proud that she could let him go that fast. unlike me, still a wondering soul. iraa kept saying im lucky to actually have his love, some time ago. but i told her, if i am lucky, i wont have lost-it-in-transation. mr happy and his friend are really abstruse.

which brings me to my facebook status, '(insert their class)'s malay boys are very abstruse. i merely want to direct to these two beings. but it did create a whole lot of junks. thank abid for making them realise that abstruse just mean hard to understand. somehow, one of them understand it earlier and kept quiet. the other need a whole lot of explaining. well, siape yang makan cili, dier yang rase pedasnyer.

anyway, his acts have been of weird lately. i know i shouldnt harbour any hopes with his doings but i cant help myself. everything he do strung a string in my heart. just like i told iraa, i miss the old nights. i really do. part of me really tired of waiting but most part of me just want me to continue waiting, having that believe that he will return. a contrast to other girls, im not shy in showing and expressing my love for my special one.

ohh wells, good night.

PS; i love you.

2009-06-10T22:09:00.002+08:00

hello earthlings.

school booster is almost over.

left with a few more subj.

today was chem and amaths.

3hrs of chem makes amaths student unable to do integration.

diao.

go through integration and exponential formula for integration.

Tomtom gave homework and we are done with amaths.

head home with iraa deary.

funny thing, was talking about my tuition.

iraa: what subject?

dyaa: (silent) look at her.

iraa: (repeat the question)

dyaa: whats up jack??

(my mind was thinking, sape jack?)

iraa: (repeat qn for 3rd time.)

dyaa: oh. what subject? haha. i heard whats UP jack? diao.

iraa: (LOL) (give me the -.- look)

dyaa: (lol) amaths and chem.

kesian diriku ini. haha.

reached home. skip2.

went salon to cut my fringe cse mummyDearest insist.

she even paid it for me.

i told the hairstylist, bangs with zigzag edge.

the result: some ridiculously short-not-bangs fringe.

no zigzag, i looked like a mad woman. zzz.

cursed and swear the hairstylist.

nightime.

did amaths homework and went on9.

cursed and swear the hairstylist again, this time over facebook.

funny how it turn out to be a convo about LiraDarling thinking im Rahmad's GF.

diao. he's my sedare larhss..

-.-

i want to share this song with my friends since almost all of them havent heard of the song or the singer.

Utada widget by 6L & Daxii

this is the lyrics to COME BACK TO ME by UTADA.

go listen. im 100% sure its nice.

well, good nights.

PS; i love you still. (:

2009-06-08T22:29:00.005+08:00

hello earthlings. my net is back! weee~

okay, real updates.

im so so glad that we got back together. the msges really sort things out. i love you my two dearest loves! remember, no more misunderstandings okey. we will always be together, forever, never replaced! cheers to ASH! xoxo.

i watch it on the day it was released. tix paid by mummyDearest. jyeah! i love3 the movie! 5stars! go and watch, you wont find ure $ going to waste. wees!~

olrite. and finally, outing with farah and 2 new found friends. rah ajk kluar cause she has to meet this guy name Arab. turns out when we went out, rah became the quiet girl. ohho. what happen to my bubbly darling? & yeah, yours truly yang bising2. it wont be a minute passed that i dont quarrel with Arab. kecohs. i just love disturbing him ey. haha, kan ENCIK JAHAN. CIK DAYAH loves quarreling with you. haha. rah keep saying that im compatible with him cse gado-gado, dah besar khawin. diao. im sorry, i thought i did have a crush on this guy but nonono. i still in love with the previous one. haha. so okay, rah meet us at smbw mrt and off to Novena Square. roamed around, went to toys R us. had a little childhood catchup time, played catching. haha. done, went to town. first stop is wisma atria. went from one shop to another. rah and i start talking about prom shoes.-.- . next is taka, went to MCD for lunch. later proceed to B1 to see the toys sale. hah. the best part ever. ENCIK Jahan tried to disturb me.

EJ to rah: aper name ppm nie?

rah: dayah.

EJ to me: aha. now ader name yer CIK DAYAH?

me: haha. paper la SHAH JAHAN

EJ was speechless and shock that i knew his full name. haha. so yeah, frm then on, we start calling each other with the ENCIK and CIK. diao.

next stop is Far East Plaza. EJ want to check out shoes and i want to check out belts. heh. done, went to the Heeren. oh, forget to mention, the other guy is BOB. bob wanted to go to HMV. rah and i hit the adidas store. A bag caught my eye which i will purchase it soon. confirm nyer. done and proceed to somerset mrt to train back home.

overall, the outing was real gerek until EJ change his mood.

ouhkay, im done. good nights.

2009-06-08T10:43:00.002+08:00

hello earthlings.
i finally found time to update this.
the stupid mio still not working so no updates still. shyt eu!

anyway, before i update this, i went to his blog.
was dissapointing but tt's old news
we are real friends now but i love him all my heart.
i tried to forget him but i cant.
boys have been coming in, trying to get into my heart. but im sorry, my heart is only for him.
if you read this, do realise i will wait.
MUHAMMAD NUR IRFAAN, I LOVE YOU STILL!
each day the feelings will just got stronger. idk why.

moving on, olevel MT paper is done. im left with 5more papers.
can see im putting all my outmost effort for the 2 subjs tt i fail during midyear.
not texting him has an advantage, tt i know he's studying hard and so am i.

my friendship have been on the rocks. i dont want to lose them but just tt we are getting further apart as days goes. why? did i make a mistake? please forgive me, if i do. im so sorry.

olrite, that's all! im out of here. will update if that mio is fixed.

2009-05-22T13:34:00.002+08:00

hello earthlings.

no internet connection = no updates.
sucky.stupid MIO. singtel, if you are reading this, go do smth about it. -.-

anyway, quick updates about the week after mid year.
intensive malay has started and im really mentally tired.
as much i really love malay, i dont like doing repeat papers after papers.
i know its to better myself but i dont really see the advantage of doing is growing in me.

anyway, 1st june is coming nearer and i know i MUST get an A1 and nth lesser for it.
its my expectation and everybody's of me too.

i read my aryna's blog just now. thanks ina for the encouraging words about DaR.
but i know where im going. he is hurting me but i dont want to care.
i been my old self lately, after he leave me.
and i swear i will only be my good self again if he return.
he's my everything.
& to his god damn 'best friend', get lost from him !
he's mine. dah ader matair nak kacau akunyer. aku sumpah aku tak teragak-agak tuk hantam kau kalau kau halang aku dari dier. and seriously, the way you try to make me jealous aint working ! bodoh nyer perempuan !!

anyway, i got my MYE results back and its dissapointing. haiya.
gorte chiong for amaths and sciences !
let's go.

10days to mt olvl. im gg bck to sch now. and im out !

2009-05-13T13:29:00.001+08:00

deleted the previous post after a talk with mum. i was being foolish.
what was i thinking..
all that bad thoughts are devil's doing.
omg omg. im sry.

2009-05-12T20:42:00.004+08:00

Selagi daya hatiku ini
akan tetap ku menyayangi
duka tiada ku peduli
bila rindu membelenggu

selagi nadi belum terhenti
ku buktikan cinta sejati
tak mungkin daku kesali
kerna hidup mu kian bererti

Rela ku terus setia
menyayangi mu
menyintai mu
walau berjauhan
teguh kalimah kasih ku
-snipets of didicazli's Rela Setia

MYE like over. the time when i wish it will be like before. but it didnt.
why dear? why are giving me the cold shoulders?

emotionally unstable. edit ltr.

EDITED !
ok, im btr right now.
after deep thoughts,
i figure i should just take what's given.
after all, life is fun of suprises.
kalau dah takdir, kita tetap akan bersama.
but i still love you, alot.
from 20feb to 25april till now.

olrite. today's papers are practically do-able
end at 1130hrs. WALK to woodlands mart frm sch, just to kill time to wait for inaDearest and sidz to fns their australian quiz. at the same time, to kill the fats tt incured after eating too much yesterday. HAHA!
meet inaDearest and Sidz at cwp. with aaron and ezra. went to KFC for lunch. kecohness of aaron&ezra + huge laughter from ASH = bad impression. haha . heck, i dont give a damn.
went around cwp with AS. went home at about 3+.
i want to update my skin. just finding ideas !
anw, tmr's marking day. the malay peeps gg out for movies. im not sure if im gg.
rather go out then be miserable alone at home right..
'tengoklah keadaan' -wonder if you rmb saying that.

currently chatting with abid and wilson. abid will always make me laugh. & wilson, you're whack-.-

good nites.

2009-05-10T22:36:00.002+08:00

the adorable niece of mine, Nur Sherin Aliyyah(:

calling out to all mothers:

HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY !

to my dearest mummy:

you're the best of the best, ilyvm.

the bouquet of 10 origami-lilies that i did all by myself.
(well, it didnt turn out like lily but its the thought that counts right XD)
hope mummy love it.

and there she is with the bouquet of lilies
is she smiling for the camera or the lilies ?
hmmm.. xD

hello earthlings.
today is mothers' day.
my family didnt hv such a big celebration like every year.
reason being some still having exams etc.
so instead, i made a bouquet of origami-liles(mum's fav flower)
for her.

today's rather simply boring.
have religious class in the morning.
started the new tuition at civic in the afternoon.
Dar told me that my new phn is the same as Hafiz's
like OMG.
ohh wells, so happy i could see him today..
wee~ he nvr fail to put a smile on my face.
saw amirul in the bus.
& he confirmed tht my phn is indeed the same as hafiz's
Nice.
reached home, eat, watch Wendy Wu(like th gazillion times)
and taught adq math.
he really need to buck up if he want to beat my PSLE score.
hahaha.
its been tradition. i beat my bro's.

so that's all. pretty yawn.
good night. im gg to edit my skin alittle b4 sleeping.

2009-05-10T20:10:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY ABID !!

4yrs of friendship. yeah us !
great friend. mesti keep in touch even after O's tau.

prolly we be gg to the same JC.

weehee..

your crappy side is really whack.

take care my friend.

pending present aite (=

(pt2 of today's post will be ltr)

off to teaching adq.

cya ltr.

2009-05-08T23:22:00.003+08:00

hello earthlings.. been quite awhile since i update..

let's comment on the papers,
eng- hard
geog- can be done
maths1- can be done
maths 2- easier of the 2
amaths 2- hard
ss- quite easy
phy-ahha.. nvr study
chem-can be done
mt- can be done

olrite. 2 more papers - combined sci 1 and amaths 1
yes. yes. yes.

yest- went to shop at bishan junction 8 after the papers. such a short trip and i spent 30+ alrdy. urgh.. i got to curb my shopping habits

today- went to toa payoh. shop again! my goodness ! mum bought me earings and hairclips. but the best buy today was my new phone ! weee~
i joined the LG clan with the new LG KP500 Cookie . hahha..
paid 3/4 and dad&mum top up another 1/4. yeah yeah...

anw, im still learning to understand the phone..
still trying to get use to the touchscreen.
so typing is still quite slow. lol.
shd b ok by tues.. haha.

btw, there's still 10mins b4 12pm so;
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AFIQ !!
thanks for being there for me always. you're the best !

olrite. good night.

2009-05-04T21:52:00.002+08:00

when i'm with you,

it feels like kindergarten.

the time when life is so happy and problem-free
ignore me for a few days

but a minute around you is enough

to make my spirits high again

iYyvmt,mnibr

i manage to squeze in sleeq in my busy preparation for mye

im glad i watch them on Jus! .

awesomesst ppl with awesome song

olrite, back to studying.

2009-05-01T18:54:00.003+08:00

the agony of distance

you're my silent killer
71 days & still

stop torturing me

2009-04-30T21:05:00.004+08:00

current mood : restless
with every teardrop, i tell myself i got to be strong
with every teardrop, i tried convincing myself that you don't meant to not reply
with every teardrop, i know i must understand
with every teardrop, fear surround me, self keep asking if you will leave me
with every teardrop, i wonder myself why, with you, it's so easy to feel so helpless
with every teardrop, i ask myself when would the lovely times come back

i know I'm vulnerable. i tried to be strong for you. but since young, i was always been very pampered. i hope you understand that i am trying to be Strong and understand your ways. i'm a little kid. take me by the hand and guide me. don't let go. i'll get lost.

i love you sayang.

2009-04-29T15:29:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BITHDAY TO ME

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, HAPPY BIRTHDAY,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME !!

I had such a wonderful birthday today eventhough it's the start of MYE

thanks to all my friends.

i love you all.

special thanks to the QAZFINI & the ASSH !

not forgeting the Boys Clan and Dar !

start the day with going to school with InaDearest. kecohness of us!

reached school and i received my first present, today, from sidz.

chatted before Shikin and Farah came to wish me.

& harith too.

fiqa came and wish me, asking me to follow her.

iraa wish me and gave me a pink bag.

inside was an eeyore soft toy!

weee~!

i love it, thanks fiqa&iraa.

had the first english paper!

did the essay on creativity.

practically nonsense-writing.

BREAK time.

went to canteen with MYsherra.

she blaja me soyabean drink

*macam present la gitu*

went to find aryna&sidz.

hang around.

QAZFINI & ASS sang to me the birthday song,

so loudly!

paisey but very happy!

the best part was i'm okay with DAR. yeah!

had the 2nd english paper.

was doable though.

head to causeway with QAZFINI.

real kecohness.

went around causeway before going to banquet to eat.

took so long to eat that practically all the people who came after us has gone.

haha.

sent fiqa&iraa to library before heading to 962 bustop with rah.

done.

present pictures are below..

^ from sidz

^the card from iraa
^ the eeyore from iraa&fiqa

^ the picture of a cake from the boys Clan.

H[I]D[A]Y[A]H

^ figure that out

2009-04-28T14:41:00.003+08:00

i thought that you are not the kind who

brings tears to my eyes.

i was wrong.

what really happen, let it be between us. i dont wish people to see him negatively.

i love you, alot, still .

i know you still do too.

2009-04-27T22:25:00.002+08:00

hello earthlings. short one here.

erms, sch's alright.
i just have to catch up on my sciences and ss.
the rest is still doable.

anw, tomorrow is early dismissal due to wed's MYE.
Dar better keep his promise. don't do what you did just now.
and yeah, so much for keeping it low.
all it took was 1 call from me to him and the whole boys clan knew abt it.
nvm, at least now, i dont need to pretend he dont exist or smth. its hardwork.

im seriously missing him, even after just stopping our messaging.
god. he's like a habit.

sidz, dont be sad. i'm not a guy catcher alright.
it just fated. i love him, alot. and he do too.

ok, this post is like too much abt him. good night.

2009-04-26T13:51:00.003+08:00

Happy 4th month to my dearest niece,

Nur Shireen Aliyyah !

i love her.

when her adorable eyes set on me,

i can't bear to not play with her.

to my DAR:

Everyday, when i see you,

fast heartbeats isn't something new.

Having you by my side,

i don't need a knight.

Like a dream come true

i give you my "i do"

Promise you this phrase

remember your love won't be a waste

'Forever and always,

i love you in every ways.'

2009-04-25T22:52:00.000+08:00

hello earthlings.

first thing, has blogger gone a little siao? jyeah, looking at how the page looks like, no buttons to add photos or edit its colour. diedie.

second thing, sent my two aunts off just now. they going for umrah. everybody was hugging and cryings. wish my two aunts bon voyage and they set off to madinah. btw, aunt sarimah, thanks for the birthday gift. granny sapiah too. i'll save the money aite. Present from my god-mum, MummyEly is still not received yet. hmmm... i love her presents. & they don't came cheap. anw, had Popeye at T1. resulted in almost not being able to pray maghrib. ouch.

third thing, i had the most wonderful Fairytale-Reality Experience, in the evening. shall not elaborate, i love the secrecy between us. :D

fourth thing, i lost the pair of Star ear studs that mum just bought for me. belum pakai dah hilang. -.-

fifth thing, i have updated my 'blogger' section. idk if the countdown is accurate. it will do for now.

sixth thing, to do list,
-Pending Blogskins
-Emaths & Amaths homework

seventh thing, good night :D:D

2009-04-24T21:12:00.002+08:00

hello earthlings .

shall update abt tdae. and yest.

today's school is blablabla.
going home with InaDearest and Sidz was whack.
Sidz really got a wild imagination.

reached home, slacked.
went online and shopped at ebay.
that meant to be a while turned out to be a long time.
took like the whole evening to find the perfect kind of shutter sunglasses
when i finally found the right one at HK, i alerted my mum.
i was like very close to purchasing it until i read on that i have to pay by credit cards.
i knew dad wont lend me the credit card. he just do not believe in online shopping.. grrr.
so now, thinking of asking my lil aunt for the credit card.
anw, multitasked . joking with mummy is like really a pain to the stomach . woaahh.. been long since i had such laugh with mummy. at the same time, was texting dearestDAR.

i made up my mind these afternoon.
it DAR that i'm choosing.
i simply love his sweet nothings.
his are really whack but sweet at the same time.
awww..
PM to dar: i really want to know what you mean yest

talking about false hope with farah just now.
i really hope Dar did not give me that.
i believe he wouldn't be that cruel to do that, right..

i finally stepped down from Red Cross with Warrant Officer rank.
Red Cross has always been a big part of my life, since primary school
now that i have stepped down, a big part of my life is like empty.
like i say in my Passing-out-ceremony speech yest, "...don't worry i will be back next year, that's a promise.(laughs)"

after all the cadets has been dismissed, tcher gave our badges and the new exco have to fall in at the multi purpose court for the 'special training' by Junru and me. Junru gave them footdrill commands to stall time for me to prepare the other part of the special training. BASH UP time!
first to be bashed with Strawberry Cereal Mix was the new chairperson, Afifah. and the order goes down the orbat chart. after i was satisfied, Junru Paitao me and yeah, i kena bash up too. the whole of my uniform turned pink. woah . Ean also help me bash them and yeah, he too kena bash . hahah .

msging with dar the whole night. damn im beat, so i slept early yest. about 9+, i knock out already. hah .

5months 28days to 22Oct- first olevel end year paper !
5weeks 2days to 01june- MT olevel paper !
& 5 days to my day & eng MYE paper !

20april has passed. its been two months 4days since we got so close, kn dar? heh .

i have decided to stop tuition. i'm not going to that place which makes me contreltophobia anymore .

currently watching ghost whisperer. good night .

2009-04-22T20:55:00.008+08:00

hello earthlings.
this week is the final before MYE starts.
gahhh..
i'm not prepared for some of the subjects
i have to start bringing back books to study ..

yest, almost land up in detention for not doing shortieee's homework. i really hate her. she makes my record really dirty. urgh.. she's just being unfair. if i know this, i would purposely make my result horrible last year, so i land up in the worser classes, at least not that shortieee's class. enough about her, talking about her makes my blood boil. so what if im irresponsible, you just another teacher, know your limits shortieee.

anw, let's talk about other stuff.

i'm just torn between two. Dar and babyboi both are very nice and dear to me.
one thing i know is that Dar and i still remain as ttm eventhough something happened between us.
but babyboi.. he's like my on-again-off-again boifie.
urgh..
i really hating this, i don't want to be seen as someone who plays around with 2 guys. perhaps those people should just shut their trap if they don't know the real stuff.

anw, finally chq my email just now. saw this email from Dar. about Muslims. like woah. its really saddening to read about it, how a Muslim could easily be convince that Allah swt is not the real god. i almost cried, yes i do. if anybody do want to read it, ill be more than happy to forward it to you.

i remember the start of my Malay essay which i would like to share;
walau badai menimpa, (when life gets difficult)
janji akan setia, (promise to stay true)
walau ajal menyambutku, (when i die,)
kan ku tunggumu dipintu syurga. ( i'll wait for you at the heaven's door)

we were joking about it happening, you jump at that opportunity and yes, it did happened.

7 more days !
goodnights.

2009-04-18T23:59:00.002+08:00

hearing you got admitted to the hosp gives me 2 kind of feeling

(i) happy and contented - that you got ure retribution for playing with my feelings

(ii) sad and worried - after all, you are still my ttm,

im really confused. what are you trying to do to me ? calling me straight after your operation really makes my heart skip a beat . you told me you're sorry. but its been the god-knows-how-many-times you have said Sorry. maybe its just a 5-letter word to you but it means hope to me . please . im really tired of going around this love maze. i just want to find the way out. but, i just cant. cause you keep coming back. it's like you are flying a kite. i was the kite. first you let go of the string, then you pull back down.

i know im foolish but bullshit, i cant help it myself .

anw, take care of yourself, i'll try to drop-by on monday.

baby, i hate you. not.

well, hello earthlings.

yest was pure boredom. due to idiotic sickness. god, i really got to build up my body strength. i keep falling sick every other day, and its affecting my school work. Dar thinks its because i refused to listen to him, not to take pearls. well, maybe that's one of the reason okay. Poor inaDearest who had to be in school alone without me and sidz. sidz suffered from horrible injuries on thursday.

anyway, i finally decide on the raye clothing theme colour. Hot Pink! adqDaus is seriously against it but he still have to wear it cause i make the final decision. haha . so had to follow mum to purchase the cloth at arab street next week, im very picky at the type of material choosen.

went to work today. reached the place late so end up starting class 15mins late. sorry! spent the afternoon doing the blogskin for the tuition centre. got my pay, and off to facial at Jurong. bought mcD icecream before heading home. did sushi, eat with sambal squid. yummy!

i love ure sweet nothings. its funny though.

so yeah, i really got to stick to my plan

malay essei
phy notes
amaths rvision qns
Dar's blogskin
rhyna's blogskin
sidz's blogskin
my blogskin

goodness ! that's hell alot !

goodnight now. i see what i can do till 1+, b4 sleeping.

the childhood lover

2009-04-11T23:25:00.001+08:00

i saw you just now
we were in the very same room
in the very same house
you on the couch,
i'm on the floor,
both of us just keep on watching tv
not even a hi from any of us
i don't know about you
but i got so many qns tt i wnt to ask
although i just keep quiet
we continue watching tv
till its time for you to go out
i saw you went out
and that's it, you stay out,
i continue to stay inside

two years waiting,
and i have given up,
well, i thought i have.
seeing you again just now,
reminiscence of the past
seem to flow back
our song was on my playlist again
its like when i was a child,
i remember the vow i made
to make you mine
now that i have achieved that,
it's such a big accomplishment
and i still cant accept the fact
what is lost, will need a miracle to be found

now that we are good friends,
no more than that,
i'm really happy
cause at least you are still around
i love you, dearest ex-turn-friend

i'm really beat.

straight after work finish at 5, went home to change

before heading out to some kenduri.

saw my dearest ex-turn-friend

and other of my deary2. yeah2!

hang around till about 9.30

before my uncle send me home cause its quite late

well, currently chatting with my dearest ex-turn-friend.

he is really full of crap !

kene ngan hyeeda yg gler2.

bagus la tu.

dier siao. aku gler. kter siaogler. lol.

well, i'm heading off now.

good nights.

2009-04-10T22:50:00.003+08:00

hello earthlings .

first thing, first;

IM SO SORRY MY DEAR MALAY PEEPS . I KNOW I'M THE ONE WHO ARRANGED THE WHOLE OUTING. BUT I DIDNT TURN UP DUE TO AN IDIOT NECK WHICH HAD TO STRAINED TODAY. I REALLY DID NOT WISH TO PAITAO BUT I CANT HELP IT . SO SORRY.

olrite, had to spend the whole day at home due to the strained neck. wake up, eat breakfast, slept again. still thought of going out until mum told me to rest cause i will not enjoy with this strained neck bugging me. so text iraa and told her the bad news. watched Bride Wars. slept again. wake up, feel like eating sushi but i was too lazy and in pain to go out and buy the things to make it. so plan cancelled. called pizza hut delivery. due to bad weather, they cant sent it. get daddy to pick it. save on delivery charge. haha. so eat a slice, bath and rot. by rotting i mean, doing things that dont need to be done. from pictures above and below, you can see i spent the time, straightening my permed hair. trying on new clothes. haha. on the comp the whole night. i can only do things that dont require me to turn. idiot of the world larh !

to do list for the weekend,

-rhyna's blogskin

-fanDar's blogskin

-copy physics' notes

-homeworks

-revision

let's end the post with another flick.

so vunerable,

so gullible

i may be good at differentiation

but im sucky when im with you

2009-04-09T23:26:00.002+08:00

time and again, i still believe. i dont understand myself sometimes. why can't i just get rid of him from my life and really-really move on ? i hate myself. i just cant move on, idiot ! all i ever wanted from him now is just to be friends. i have long lost hope in patching up cause you never mean it when you say it. twice already it happen and i still fall for your words. i cant find any dumber person then i am.

they say, ignorance is bliss. maybe that's what i should really start learning to do when he start all his sweet nothings.

well, that sure feel better.

hello earthlings.

today was bad. almost fainted after massrun .idiots of the world larhh .. just 2 meals skipped and i became so weak? what happen to you, hyeeda? gahhha . well, big thanks to the following people:

iraa & hwee Hian-for accompanying me aft MR.

farah, sidz & aryna-for dragging me to sick bay even aft much protest from me

syukriah-for the mango tea drink

& everybody who was so concerned over me when i start to walk like a drunkard.

haha . !

i would like to make a complain. it's really a wrong idea to place a sick bay where people always came in and out, banging the doors. for one, the sick cant rest well. two, when they finally get to rest, the doors, expecially will disturb their rest. i miss those primary school's sickbay where's there proper bed and its away from banging doors. grrr...

anyway. school continues and went for RCY after school. so happy that's no eng coach with her. situation got topsy-turny when some of my cadets and exco's baret went missing after the ncc's sports day's performance. MNIBR and NZBM, you guys own me an explanation! anyway, sorry my dear exco's that i cant help in the cleanup. got to rush for tuition. sorry!

as the picture stated, happy birthday dearest NZBM. ! may you do well in your studies, be loyal to mrs lim kay.. dnt be traitor lag (4e3ers should get the joke) . stay in contact after o's. we will always be best of friends (:

happy 16th birthday.

as tommorrow's Good Friday, its a public holiday for us.

i cant wait to go and watch movie with the malay clan.

its to celebrate zani's birthday and always to have our regular malay clan outing.

pictures will be up by tmr night !

good night for now.

i want to have my beauty sleep. haa !

2009-04-05T17:52:00.002+08:00

Happy 24th Anniversary Mummy and Dad !

i really wish to know how you guys could last so long together.

to my mummy; i love you. though you never get tired of nagging at me, i know its for my own good. you are a good daughter, wife, mother and now, grandma. you are always there when i need you. i know sometime you disagree on my decisions, maybe you see it wrong. but sometimes, i just want to make my own decisions. i hope you will understand that.

to my dad; i love you too. yes, i admit, i fear everytime you raised your voice. i know we had alot of misunderstanding and disagreement. you see that i do such stuff like going home late is wrong. because you dont want me to be like abg fiq. i just wish you know that i and abg fiq are different person of different mindset and thinking. you are a good father. dont worry, i will not let you down. i give you the distinctions you want.

wow.. that's some teary part.

it will be a short post today. im lazy & i still have homework to finish.

i like it the way we are now. 040509, 0000hrs(;

2009-04-04T20:28:00.004+08:00

4x100m Sec 4&5 Gold medalist :D

big thanks to Sherra, Iraa & HweeHian for the awesome teamwork between us .

we managed to clinched the gold again, like last year .

well, hello earthlings .

i have alot to update . & i don't know which to start off with .

hmmms ...

3rd april 2009-wgs' 10th annual sports day ; not much of a hoho event. other than our 4x100m run, ncc's toy soldier performance and 4E1 cheer performance . reach woodlands stadium at 6.55, report to the red cross base . thought i was late, but im one of the earliest. hmmms. anyway, the event proceed on with some casualties. i will die of exhaustion and dehydration. lucky for me, i was on duty so i could go out and purchase drink without having to queue. sorry people. heh. after it all ended, walked to cwp. upon reaching, my dearest ina, sidz, and the boys went to KFC to take away food while i had pastamania to-go. we all proceed to Civic Ctr and that's when all chats and laughs started with out very own airconditioned picnic. haha. reminiscences of the 4years in woodgrove really brought back laughter. talked about teachers and how 1E1'06 got class detention on the first week of school to crappy attitudes towards teachers. i lovin' it. after that, had to go and meet mum. saw ina & sidz's pri friend. well, kinde feel left out so i quickly just go off. had to visit aunt at admiralty. talked alot, share thoughts on stuff and, i played Barbie Dolls with my lil cousin! after about 7years not playing with it. c'mon, there's a kid in everybody. pictures are below. haha !

reached home and rested before proceeding for tuition. spent the night talking on the phone with Edfie.

2nd april 2009- highlight: MT mid-year Oral examination; the day started of with me doing pledge in RCY uniform in the morning. proceed on with Mass run, and that's when i injure myself. stupid sec5 who cause me to almost trip and injuring my whole right leg. i was limping the whole day. grrr.. anyway. school ended and proceed for lunch before oral started. i had fun during the oral as it was mdm azza who tested me. well, at first i was a little nervous. but after few moment, i could regain my confidence. funny thing was when i forget what is First Aid in Malay, so i went asking mdm azza, "cikgu, First Aid dalam bahase melayu apa?" its funny cause mdm azza's reply was" hmm.. alamak saye pun terlupa. tak apalah, saya faham. (laughs)". could see that she was impressed with me knowing to do first aid and my future plan of wanting to do volunteer work in the 3rd world country after my O's. haha! so, proceed for the normal RCY training. wasn't in the mood to shout at people so even i was suprised at myself for teaching them footdrills without shouting. reached home, had to disciplined myself to bedrest as my leg is getting worse by the hour.

1st april 2009- highlight: xinni's birthday; my dearest xinni turned 16 on that day. as usual, during emaths class, we had our tradisional 4E3-sing-birthday-song thing. haha ! received the Mid-year timetable. guess what? i got a super early birthday present- eng exam falls that day ! haha ! nice right. NOT .

4th april 2009; went for work at 11. crap lah iffah. teached the pri 5&6 science(forces) and teached pri 2 maths. iffah struggle teaching eng and maths to pri 1 and 2. lawak la kau! hmm..iffah kan, my one-year-younger-with-darker-tone-of-skin twin ! the reason why she's my twin is because of our hair and our characteristics. we can laugh till we sit on the street when we meet. had family lunch at FishNChicks, a newly opened restaurant beside Sembawang Shopping Center. yummy steak, medium raw. mummy find it gross how i can swallow it when it's still reddishly. haha! that's medium raw la mmy oi ! went to SSC to shop, purchase a star ring. & a cropped cardigan from Dano. went home and sleep. swear im gaining weight again. ha !

i wanted you bad but i'm scared.

should i go for it?

2009-03-28T21:47:00.004+08:00

hello earthlings .

yesterday and today are awesomesst..

hmms . yesterday; bad start to day> good evening> horrible night

letme elaborate . 3 years of clean record is dirtied thanks to a teacher .

seems like she the only tcher who always find fault with me .

gah. i hate her .

and yeah, it wasnt tt bad, it not as horrible as i thought it will be .

dots . moving on, had napfa . god, i really slack ey .

one for every grade . fhm2 je la .stupid sbj .

seriously, i dont see the rational of having sbj as one the 5-items .

anw, watched twilight(again!) on jasper's laptop while waiting for the student leader's bbq to start.

yeah . had lots of photos taken during bbq .

below are some of them,

its big pity that aryna's not with us . haish . take care olrite .

anw, the bbq end on a sad note for me . shall not go on. but i guess the heart-to-heart talk with dad really works .

had visitors when i reached home . shireen was enjoying the attention heh ..

today;

didnt plan on going out until i stumble on the website on earth hour's celebration at esplanade park . and realised that religious class project is still not done . so yeah, went out with dearest bebellecia . meet her at yishun mrt at around 4 and we zoom off to CThall .

upon reaching, had ljs. head down to peninsular to start on the research . on Tattoo. done with it, head to esplanade park .

sit around,stand around, watched the performance put up for the night . waiting for edfie nyer lembab laki tu .so yeah after 3456789minutes, he finally turn up along with uddin, man, syafiee, and i think i forget somebody .

goodness, why are my 2exes around together with the one who's 'crazy for me' ? edfie looks alien with short hair. and uddin looks super cute in those bermudas . haha ! the rest look pretty okay . anw, hang around a little while more before going off .

belle had to visit her grams who in the hospital so i have no other choice other than to head home . reached home at almost 9 .

so yeah, adik is so into earth hour larhs . made the whole family off everything . well, almost everything . bro didnt want to off the comp, so yeah, that's the only things that is on during the one hour .

today pictures are with bebellecia cause my phone cockups . fcukeuss!

personal message to people;

dar: i have read your ofline message. yeah, i have forgive you .

aryna; will relink you soon . take care !

rah; lawar kan gambar pat atas tu ! that's pure candid ! haha !

edfie; glad we are now best of friends . no more grudges, yeah . & i didnt mean to make you quarrel further with your girl . apologies !

uddin; i hope i can still be best of friends with you too . take care !

man; fcukofffs . frickledminded much . Lies and all, dont even dream of me being yours .

iraa; i trust that i havent change, im still here for you okay . please stop thinking negatively .

yest, when listening to a di lamun rindu by apit, i actually cried . guess it brings back memories. the lyrics to the song, its exactly how im feeling . not towards dar but somebody else .

"..bila aku sendirian,

terkenang kenangan waktu kita bersama,

pilu rasa hati bila kau tiada disisi

sehingga kau hancurkan hidupku

tak perlu kau mengkhinati cinta.."

-snipets of the lyrics

well, good night now .

2009-03-24T22:21:00.003+08:00

Random Flick (:
hello earthlings .
i survive the 1st-2nd day of term 2 . hah .
class been okay . nothing much to elaborate on
except my dearest class 1's classmates' DOP .
Adam's one was really crap .
Cuzin's one was really neat for a guy . "great, great, great, great, .. and great grandparents"
cute much.
the rest was just funny because they are not prepared for it .
today, had MT coach . to tell you the truth, the 3 sister really did consider on skipping it but the thought of Olvl coming nearer just makes us think 180degrees . so yeah, had coach with Florid till 4! god damn . everyone of us was just listening, trying to absorb, not forgeting trying to make the clock hands move faster with our eye power ..hmmmss..
went to tuition after that . Shahrin and peeps were answers to sleepiness . with them around, tag-teaming with my teacher, i couldn't help blushing everytime they try to disturb me with Farsyun . lol much . head home at 9pm, had dinner, did abit of geog hwk and here i am blogging when im suppose to head for the bed .
i guess i go off now .

kini satu sahaja matlamatku.
untuk berjuang terusan
kau tak aku hiraukan
kerana ke menara gading
yang sahaja akan ku utamakan
(im lazy to find its rhyme)

2009-03-22T19:04:00.003+08:00

hello earthlings ..

went to robinson expo sale just now .
i swear it didnt look a recession period over there .
people, mostly ladies, are shopping bags full of things.
i on the other hand, decide on just a pair of slim cut denims
an esprit brand which originally cost me $100+ but its selling at $40
it's over 60% discount . who in the right mind wont purchase it right ..
it's a must grab.

anyway, proceed home. went online to survey for phones since my phone is on the will-die-soon state . decide on Nokia phones . was considering the 5800 or soon-to-be-released 5730 when i saw this soon-to-be-released N86. its really a great deal which instantly caught my eye . a slide phone with 8megapixel camera ! woah much . im so going to purchase it the day it will be released . so for now, its time to save,save, save and uhm.. not forgeting to stay in good behaviour so that mummy will pay some for me . weeeeheees !

so tomorrow is the start of term 2 for me, about 219 days to olevels and about 79days to MT olevel . gahh .. and yeah, idk how i will face him tomorrow. ohh shucks .. it's good that we agree that we will still remain friends . but by friends, idk how it will be like ..

i really miss my Rabia, been really wanting to visit her, just that i cant find time. maybe some day around this week . please, hold on. i miss your craziness and laughter . do take care of yourself. you know that all of us are always behind you. have fate in yourself . i will continue praying for you .

oh ALLAH, please take care of my Rabiatul Adawiyah . Amin.

2009-03-22T00:37:00.002+08:00

hello .
for those who need to relink me, apologies and thank you .
for the too-much pink layout this time, not that i now love pink and forget about purple. im still crazy for purple . but just using the pink colour for no particular reason .
didnt really find it nice though . but it will do for now .

anw, otp with Man just now .. cheer ups alright . your features are god's gift . treasure it, dont be ashamed of it . and please, waiting for me for 1yr+ now is really not necessary . i will not accept your love cause i know i end up hurting you okay ..do move on (: appreciate that most .

yeah, i manage to complete InaDearest's skin yest and mine, a few mins ago . i love the new flicks that you changed . guess i didnt know which pics to put so the change was great . glad you love the layout. i got inspiration from Barbie . lol .

yesterday, thanks to Syahmi, Sharie and Farsyun, and not forgeting my 3 BFFL, InaDearest, Sherra and Syafiq, for layaning/comforting me after the whole misery came by . you people are the awesomest larhs ..

sherra, i agree with you, Guys came and go but Friends stay always (:

2009-03-20T23:26:00.005+08:00

hello earthlings .

its 20th of march .

and its exactly 1mth after anglophonic rave .

after a month this is what i get from you .

i understand .

a little something for you;

For God's sake,

stop being a fake .

You are so wise,

to be so nice .

Give me hope,

yes, im a dope .

Through it all,

i still fall .

words are so dear

but the aftermath is a fear

i thought you are not the same

but you see love as a game

now that you have win,

to love you is like a sin

ask me if i'm fine

i'll say that idiot's not mine

i aint a fool

im cool .

boy, listen up . ever heard that a girl's heart is very fragile ?

do you really have to be so mean

so harsh ..

say it slow, i get it .

you dont have to hurt me so deep .

LIAR . CHEATER .

i dont hate you .

i just despise you .

200209 -200309

the end D:

you are just another one of them, thanks .

2009-03-19T20:02:00.002+08:00

finally, im updating .. heh .

monday,
went for camp, from 730am in the mrning .
what i brought for camp was just a small side bag, so my friends were like, ' what really did i put in my bag?' & my ans, " the power of Ziplock bag" hahah ..
my friends told me that they too used ziplock bag but why did their bag end up being so big ..
hahh .. the actual not-so-secret to packing a small bag is that to pack less, roll the clothings up and use ziplock bag ..
so yeah , im really drained physically, emotionally and mentally .. due to some delays, the time always have to be changed ..
Aptness Twilight or Talent Night was awesomess .. thanks to san and fiq for the performance. own eu guys meal when sch reopen (:
lights out for cadets will 0030hrs . and that nco have to cntinue training till 1+ . finally bathing at 2am in the morning and having meeting at the middle of parade sq in wee hours .. slept for less than an hour before proceeding for a super early nco physical training at 4.45 am . did stretching and climb the sch gate to head for a 1.8km run outside school . and suddenly i feel so high after that physical training .. thanks to my dearest jun hong sir and junru mam' .

tuesday,
continue with camp and had really had a good time having wet games, footdrill-styled . cadets break camp at 5.30pm while nco break camp at 6. proceed for a bath before heading home.
to those cadets who got scolded by me through the camp, dnt take it too hard . i had to do so . scoldings will get you more disciplined . i too didnt like to be scolded or to scold people . but through experience, i know my seniors scold me for a reason (: to better myself and im proud to say, im different now . anw, head home with iffah .

wed,
head to school for amahts .stupid taxi charge me til $7 . ever heard of recession??
anw, studied 14.5 and rates of change . after class, walked with rah to cwp for mc icecream .
head home and sleep a little while for picking adq up frm arabic class . purchase lunch and head back home . slack most of the day .

today,
watched movies and disciplined myself to start on homework . did amaths, ss & chem . wee . im happy . bebellecia called and say she would like to drop by . have fun webcaming and surfing net .

lastly, before im really start on my & ina's skin, i really want to have some personal shoutouts;
i miss the following people really too much
ARYNA NOERBAYU BINTE ANDI DJOHAR
SINDHU PUVANARAJA NAIDU
& not forgetting, my dearest DAR !

ouhkey .. im still thinking if im shd go and change my link ..
considering ..
thinking ..
processing ..
and yeah, im changing ! hah .

2009-03-15T18:27:00.002+08:00

hello earthlings .

letme blog abt the whole week and yesterday .

the whole week hasn't been the best week .
rushed to complete and make changes to camp proposal
and i have to lose my phn on a crucial time like this .

i got back my term1 results last friday .
wasnt the best of results but im happy that i pass my amaths! yeah me !
the following are my results:
eng- f9 (not many pass oke)
emaths-c5(i have to forget my formulas during test -.-)
malay- A2 (oh shucks . where is my 1 after the A?)
c.science- e8( oh no!)
c.humans-c5 ( i pass! yeah)
amaths- c5 (finally. no f9!)

yest was wgs 10th annivesary funfair .
what i like abt it:

the performance, expecially sleeq !
the kecoh-ness
i can meet up with my dearest guy friends who has graduated . namely, wilson, hyekel, khee rui, jason, etc .
both my cca and class stall sell well
i saw him! lol (not tt i dnt c him during sch days or what . but not seeing him for 1wk, its torture !)
i work with sharie's mum ! had so much fun . she is so in!

what i dont like abt it:

that in 1 small sch, i saw 4 of my exes ! grr.. namely; uddin, desprado, fie and san .
that i dont get to eat properly . i didnt even get to savour sharie's mum ice lolly ! grr..

overall, it's a success, i must say !

after the carnival end at around 5, iffah and i went for 'a trip around singapore' . lucky dar did not follow if not bet eu he will be complaining . lol .

what actually happen is that after we went to beach road to purchase the cadet's army poncho, we couldnt find a bus to the nearest mrt so we walk to bugis . and by walking, i mean exploring . took pictures, went crazy .and really, smart iffah make me cross the road, take the underpass and realise we are back at the street where we first are before crossing the road . dots .

we did alot of stupid stuff . most if not all are iffah's idea . it's like going for a mad goose chase around singapore . frm wld to lavender, to bugis to queenstown to jurong east and back to wld again . god! i end up reaching home at almost 11 when the places we intended to go was just beach road and ikea . the journey to and back was what cause us to go home late .

anw, today is relax but stressing. while i try to relax, my mind still go on thinking abt tmr's camp. im really scared of the outcome . while im cool that dar wnt be arnd cause he gg for his course, i will still miss him . grr ..

shall end here cause i still have packing and proposal to do . not to mention chating with wilson frm just now . he's full of crap .

btw, pictures frm yest shd be up on facebook pretty soon .chalo for now(:

2009-03-08T22:12:00.002+08:00

hello earthlings .

i dont really have stuff to blog but just feel like blogging . hahah .
and, after giving jobs to hidayah(3) and afifah, i still havent do my part of the proposal .
spent the night chatting with dar.
i had fun cse i miss that abstruse adolescent !

parts of it which i find ridiculously funny,
dar:gems
me:gems ?
dar:yep
me:pe tu ?
dar:bdk gemok ketawa
me:pardon me for being slow . i still dont get it . hah .
dar:u dont see a video?
me:what video ?
me:the gems vid
me:i guess not .
dar:ouh
me:what is it abt ?
dar:when i type gems,
me:u-huh .. dhen ?
dar:then gambar tu akan kluar lah

mcm anjing bbual ngan kucing . and dar, its not Video . Its ANIMATION . no wonder i dont get it . hhaha . its really random . haha . Stupid BDK Gemok Ketawa .

ohh wells, off to finish ina's blogskin . pardon me if i cnt finish it tdae . i wasnt in the mood to it . haha .

2009-03-07T20:33:00.002+08:00

hello earthlings .

the week's been alright .
had sports heats on tuesday at innova JC .
ran 1500m and 200m .
got 3rd for 1500m first heat and 4th for 200m .
guess i'm too tired when i went for 200m as the previous event was 1500m .
it's 3.75 rounds around normal stadium track.
who wasn't tired out clearly not a human .
haha .

people would find me at LJS with inaDearest after the heats,
to refill empty stomach and energy that was gone .
heh (:

skipped coach on thursday and proceed to innova JC again .
not for running but for First Aid duty.
not much casulties
except for ahmad and that sec-1-guy-who-i-don't-know-the-name.
poor thing D:

and yesterday, ppl just cant let me went h0me early aite ..
proceed for RCY meeting after school
and went to Chong Pang, searching for the t-shirt printing shop to check out the pricing for exco shirt .
end up reaching home at 3+ when i was dismissed at 12+ . -.-

today;;
spent half the day at grans' hse .
had a fun time playing with e-raaDarling
the other half of day was mostly spent infront of the comp
and i hate it when i have to argue with you, mum .
but i'm just dissapointed of what you say .
will you please stop adding pressure to me ?

it's been weeks since we messaged ,
i had fun
your ego's so cute
your witty ans are just so interesting
dar, you got me liking you
you came when he's gone
is like you know i need someone around
thank you, anglophonic rave :D

well, i'm off to start on inaDearest blogskin before doing mine, maybe .

2009-02-28T22:12:00.003+08:00

hello earthlings .

GIG

to people like me and aryna who is not used to the rock genre, going to ultrasound at playden really need some time to adjust . but after some time, i did enjoy it .

the gig was awesomessss...

heard down to marina sq after the gig for food. i'm starving . had LJS .

asy, ina and iwas reminded of the day when we filmed our vodcast there during ramadan last year. "tempat kiter berasmara dan berdrama"

walk around aimlessly before deciding to train home. we bounce back from marina mrt so that we could have sits . kecoh much . that's when we start camwhoring with each other . it's great ..

come to think of it , when zani, ina, abid and i waited for the janji-melayu-boys, we were grumbling. but at the end of the day, we enjoyed ourselves really much .

reached woodlands and we went to mac to purchase ice-cream eventhough it was raining . vanilla cone for the rest and blackforest mcflurry for ina and me . yummy yummy !

head home after that because i had to be home before dad does . hah .

pictures will be in the facebook album .

just that the picture below just makes me want to put it up here .

good nights

;the adulation for that abstruse adolescent

2009-02-27T23:47:00.003+08:00

Camelia maafkanlah aku
Karena ku tak bisa temani tidurmu
Camelia lupakanlah aku
Jangan pernah lagi kau temui aku
Kau wanita terhebat
Yang pernah singgah di hatiku
Kau wanita yang tegar
Aku mohon lupakan aku
[*]
Sudahlah jangan menangis lagi
Ku rasa cukup sampai di sini
Mungkin di suatu saat nanti
Kau temui cinta yang sejati
[**]
Sudah cepat lupakanlah aku
Jangan pernah ungkit masa lalu
Ku takut kekasihku pun tahu
Kau pernah menjadi simpananku
Camelia…
Kau wanita terhebat
Yang pernah singgah di hatiku
Back to [*][**]
Back to [**]
Camelia…
-Camelia by Irwansyah

well hello earthlings . .
to those who understand malay, check out the song above . it's really very nice and touching .

P.D.A

i don't mean the gadget. it's a shortform for Public Display of Affection . Going home in the evening just now was really hard . it's an eye sore seeing couples around, showing affection in the public . spare a thought . or if i were to say it in a harsh tone, Get a Life !

anyway, thanks to SYAHMI for layaning me the whole evening and night . i had so much fun chatting with you . i love the new you man ! so caring, so matured.. well, let's not get carried away. but yeah, the new you is way way better !

idk what got over farsyun today . he seems different . like no interest . maybe the long day tired him out. haven't been seeing him lately this week .

went to purchase new shoes since none of my shoes could match my assemble for tomorrow . im going all black-green tomorrow . yeah me ! . gaha .

head for tuition after that . Amath tuition to be exact . Differentiation and modulus got me topsy-turny since sch is doing modulus and tuition is doing Differentiation . gahhh ..

anw, this week is half-awesome-half-yawn .

i got back most of my common test papers . 6 subjects . 2 good passes . 2 horrible fails . 1 just fail and 1 haven't got back . currently, my main worry will be English !! . i don't know to answer the compre questions correctly .

thanks to irfaan for layaning me on wed and thurs . chats with you is great .

i'm beggining to see the fact . i'm forgetting him now and back to myself after the day he left me . the days when i miggle around with guys, having stupid crushes which are just short . i'm tired of finding . let me do the hiding now . why is it so hard to find a guy with 3 simple criteria ?

it shouldn't be my main problem now . my focus this year is 11Olevelpointer . i want to beat khalid's score of 12 . thanks eh khalid for thinking i'm a sec5 this year . im a yr younger than you la oi !

my guyfriends' gig tmr !! good luck guys . seriously, i'll just go for you guys cause i don't really listen to the genre you guys are playing . see you guys tomorrow !!

it's great that dearest is back to normal . cheer up, girl . you have me alright ! stay cool .

happy belated birthday yong jing, my chem partner . be the happy 6teen !

i guess i'll stop here . good night !

2009-02-23T22:38:00.003+08:00

hello earthlings .
a 5min update .

sch as per normal .
coach was MT .
for the ferst time in history, i feel asleep during MT coach . nvr happen b4 .
just that i fell asleep because Florid was nagging abt bina ayat . yawn . she take such damn long time to explain a word . boring ! i need mdm farrah back !!

while heading out of sch, saw JASON at the guard house . god, i miss him man ! awesomesss ..
was like running towards him and we exchanged hugs and quick update abt rcy . gahhh ..

reach hm, cook my early dinner b4 slacking .
had phy tuition at night . although without farsyun around, i can still manage . hah .

happy birthday hasan ex-ku !
you're 16 now eh !
may god bless your life and good luck for O's !

Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you

Memories
Supposed to fade
What's wrong with my heart?
Shake it off, let it go
Didn't think it be this hard
Should be strong
Moving on
But I see you
Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside
- david archuleta

FIE - FUCK IT EDFIE ,

2009-02-22T20:58:00.003+08:00

hello . hello .

i had fun just now .
thanks iraa, farah, asy, amirul, adam, zani. ohh and amirul's cuz hamka, the cutestuff. heh .
after mad class,
went to the meet them to play badminton .
fun . at first, not used to playing around boys
but i get use to it .
and when it rain, we start to slack under the decks
asy suggested that we play ali pom.
it was a lil childish but its fun.
it beats sitting around doing nothing under the voideck right .
anw, rain stoped and we play badminton and takraw again .
went home around 5+ .

btw, happy birthday harith !
and happy two-hours-in-advance-birthday hasan & danial al-nawaz

and i can't help but to succumb to your words .
i know i said i hate you,
truth is im lying to myself and to everybody,
because i can't stand it that i still have feelings for you.

2009-02-22T08:34:00.003+08:00

to SHAH EDFIE WONG RUI WEN,,

you left hanging.
full of questions to ask
i was that heartbroken kid
so truthful,
and so vulnerable,
so easy to cry..
aint easy getting over you
i'll take my time
3months later
almost already moving on,
you came
saying you need me back
your life nothing without me
you tell me all that shit
i know i shouldn't have believe you
your words are your toys
to make girls be yours
but i can't help it,
you choose the right words
telling me 'i love you'
god, im such a dumbass to trust you
i thought you changed
but yesterday's incident make me see
the loopholes in your stories
lying is nothing to you,
boy, listen up,
the heartbroken kid's dead
you make me feel sad,
you make me feel mad,
but i realise
you are just good with your words
when in fact,
you're a coward
you don't even dare
to look me in the eye
all you do
is hide behind your messages
caution boy,
you did this alot
i'm aware many girls
having the same fate as me
you'll get it back
you'll get your punishment someday
& when that happen,
don't you come begging
forgiveness isnt for a you
you don't deserve it aye ..
off you go,
& I HATE YOU !

2009-02-21T19:40:00.002+08:00

hello earthlings . i'm back from the eng camp :D
pictures will be at my facebook album- life reasons - soon .

left the sch slightly early. had to go the interview session with olvl malay top scorers .
had fun . saw hamdan from obor camp last yr ... weeeeee .. seeing him makes me miss all the oborcampmates . i want to be meeeet uppp laaa !!!

the afternoon after that started to be very dramatic . full of tears and anger between me and fie .
must we quarrel . when are you going to learn to just stick to one . shall not elaborate further, it's quite personal. those who know the whole story, half story, thanks for being there for me .

i'm not in the right mind now . still all boggled up. shall end here oke .

fie, this aint getting us anywhere. i feel miserable, you feel miserable, when is this going to end?

2009-02-21T01:35:00.002+08:00

hello earthlings . it's 0136hrs . i'm currently in school . having camp and yeah, im using the comp . cool bukan . heh . well, idk what to update today . let's talk abt the camp .

i was actually supposed to be here only until 7pm . but i have to replace a sick girl . so yeah, here i am in the camp .
it's an english camp .
i had fun incharged of the noun girls . G-doubleO-D-J-O-B, good job girls . and irfaan . and syafiq .

i got no mood to blog actually . will blog when i get back home .

why now ? why are you back now ? it took you 3mths for you to realise im important to you D:

2009-02-16T22:55:00.001+08:00

; in the end, i don't know what suddenly came over you

good nights .

2009-02-14T22:43:00.002+08:00

hello earthlings .

today's v.day .
aint suppose to be celebrating it due to religious reasons .
oh wells,
when you are with the one you love, every day is like v.day .
you dont need feb14 to clbrate your love, right ..

anw, spent my day at the ctr, studying differentiation-product rule .
wasnt in the mood to really do amaths because dear did not turn up .
but manage to pull myself tgt, "common test coming, gorte put aside dear for awhile" -.-

i'm seriously considering, should i bring dear on 28feb ?
while i dont believe in being in the same place with the current and the previous,
i seriously want to go out with dear .
and i alrdy brought tix .
gahh ..

tomorrow's schedule will jammed packed .

jogging with iraa in the morning @ wld stdm .
religious class with bebellecia
homework and revision for common test ; and i got

eng essay
malay essay
mon's CT's revision: eng and Geog(E)

double essay .. haiya .. i let mdm faridah and myself down for the first malay essay, i dont want it a repeat of history . and eng essay's mark got to be consistent or better . previous on marriage is 22/30, got to mantain that .

"dearohdear, idk why im feeling this way . other than my first love, no one really make me feel really in love like this . and well, you came into my life and become the 2nd person that really could touch my heart . ily, imy . cnt wait till mon, to be able to see you, to be near you .. 4days/week, evey min after i reach home from tuition, i just cant wait for the next time i went for tuition for i know i will see you again . you are not a distraction, you are a motivation . "

2009-02-14T01:20:00.002+08:00

Aint this cute ?
the purple's mine .
the green's iraaa's

we also have identical files .
mine in purple
her's in green .

idk what else will next.
but it will definately be
PURPLE
AND
GREEN .
:D :D

2009-02-14T00:19:00.002+08:00

hello earthlings .

now is 0019hours, 14Feb
happy v.day !
& happy 16th b'day to Naeem .

the previous day is really tiring .
expecially with school, pe, Cip and tuition .
school was gr8 . c.t is coming this monday . im quite ready . just got to read up and i ready to sit for it . had 2.4km trial run for pe . 13+mins = SLOW !! congrats to my dearest partner iraaa-1150mins . keep it up ! . Cip was fast but quite tiring as the block is quite a distance frm school .
head home with sherra . crazy la dektu . meet mummy for lunch before heading to tuition . had to cover the tuition job for nini, she didnt turned up . was supposed to teach this punjabi girl . she's tough. imagine a P4 girl doing P1 math with mistakes ? anw, started on amaths' differentiation just now . i find it confusing BUT fun and quite simple .

i'm just waiting for my drugs to get me sleepy enough to sleep . gahhh ..

dear, where are you tonight . did you forget to bring your phone out ?
i'm missing you . can't wait to see you tomorrow (:
dear, ily.

well, im going to surf the net . may post some random stuff later .

2009-02-06T23:54:00.003+08:00

hello earthlings .

today's schedule is relatively fine . had physics first thing in the morning . studied on resistors which i have studied during tuition so kinde switch half-off . heh .
come PE . everybody's dreading it . lucky for us, she's unable to take our class and a relief teacher takes over . and the whole 2periods went on with us playing badminton . i find my skills getting better . thanks iraaa for the support . "focus! don't laugh" think i heard that alot from her during that 2period . haha . playing against farah and zahidah with iraaa was most fascinating . it's chaotic . when zahidah and farah tag-team, it's just hilarious .
eng was next . yawn . i need the teacher to TEACH not just sit and give us work to do . recess was spend doing geog's graph .
emaths was next, it's really funny to see mrs lim . her class can be crazily interesting .
and finally end of geog marks the end of sch and start of weekends . head home with my crazy bunch, aryna and sindhu .
kak ayu dropped by to see the sec1s . she's treated like a hollywood star, with the sec1s surrounding her . fascinating isn't it .

tuition's start in the evening up to 9pm . and the rest of the night is spent messaging him(: .
i'm really tired right now . good night .

060209, 11.09pm, a new beginning . i can't ask for anything more than you being part of me .

2009-02-04T22:05:00.003+08:00

"Hatiku dihantui bayanganmu
Sejak mula kita bertemu
Kuhanyut dibuai rasa rindu padamu
kata-katamu sentiasa membuatku tertawan pada kamu
Kuingin kan kau dekat bersama dengan ku selalu... "
farshDear, i'm missing you already ..

he's not my current . but he makes me go crazy . trust me .
just returned from tuition minutes ago .
sitting beside him is so awesome .
our weekly messages to each other just filled up our friday night doing nothing but just texting each other .
i'm so glad i meet him .
from day one (0201), i already fell in love with his smile .
gladually as i know him, i know he's the one .
everything about him is just so great .

right .. before i spent time just go babbling abt him, i shall just go off now .
haven't really been updating as there lack of time .
i'm beat . good night (:

2009-01-31T22:37:00.003+08:00

hello earthlings .

doctors just confirm .
im suffering from a sickness . SOBS .

and what sickness will a turning-16-soon-gal be suffering from right ..

O.C.D

haish .. help ...

2009-01-27T01:48:00.002+08:00

finally ! i done reading all twilight's series . it took me raftly around two days . wow .

now, im waiting for MIDNIGHT SUN .

anw. let's move on from this twilight craze .

went to grams hse just now to hang out .

it's like i'm celebratin CNY .

cse i go there, chill, eat and get hong pao :D
went to T3 next . walk around with dearest mummy ..

and proceed to POPEYE's for an early dinner .

yummy . i love the whipped potato more then anything else over there .

not much that happen today or should i say yesterday .

after finishing breaking dawn a few mins ago,

i officially can stop being addicted to the books and concentrate on my pilling hwks . heh .

chatted with iraaa the whole night . i have fun . layan her since she feels so bored .

so many random qn that she ask ..

(*)Je m'appelle іяаа (*) Je t'aime! says:
antare bdk sec 3e lelaki who's th cutest ?
(*)Je m'appelle іяаа (*) Je t'aime! says:
08
D*ỷąäą says:
if eu c cutest as ugliest but most adorable, i'll choose hafiz
(*)Je m'appelle іяаа (*) Je t'aime! says:
paling macho ?
D*ỷąäą says:
Lis .
(*)Je m'appelle іяаа (*) Je t'aime! says:
paling handsome ??
D*ỷąäą says:
idk who .
D*ỷąäą says:
kenape ?
(*)Je m'appelle іяаа (*) Je t'aime! says:
jap2 aku nk tanye lagy
(*)Je m'appelle іяаа (*) Je t'aime! says:
paling kelakar ?
D*ỷąäą says:
tt b my cuz and asy
(*)Je m'appelle іяаа (*) Je t'aime! says:
haha .
(*)Je m'appelle іяаа (*) Je t'aime! says:
hmm , paling giler ?
D*ỷąäą says:
wait, must it b all boys ?
(*)Je m'appelle іяаа (*) Je t'aime! says:
boys dulu ..
(*)Je m'appelle іяаа (*) Je t'aime! says:
k lah girls pon bly
D*ỷąäą says:
giler ? alot dey .
(*)Je m'appelle іяаа (*) Je t'aime! says:
haha k .
(*)Je m'appelle іяаа (*) Je t'aime! says:
hmm th one u will choose if u cn pick any ?
D*ỷąäą says:
ARYNA NOERBAYU !
(*)Je m'appelle іяаа (*) Je t'aime! says:
and th guy ?
D*ỷąäą says:
giler in what way ?
D*ỷąäą says:
gd -dan . bad- jib .
(*)Je m'appelle іяаа (*) Je t'aime! says:
bukan giler taw
(*)Je m'appelle іяаа (*) Je t'aime! says:
as in ur bf ..
D*ỷąäą says:
oh paiseyh .

(im nt going to reveal the last part :D )

have fun reading though !

well, off to bed now .

good nights .

2009-01-25T00:25:00.002+08:00

hello earthlings.

some ppl will call it crazy.
but believe me when i say i did go and check out the JCs' websites that interest me .
since this year is O's year, i got to start planning and work towards it right .
well, that was what i told my dearest cintaARYNA .
but she not into this planning-for-future thing . tsk3 . lol .

anw, i check out 3 JCs today .
1. Tampines JC (TPJC)
2. Nanyang JC (NYJC)
3. Pioneer JC (PJC)

i thought so that temasek JC will be too tough for me so i decide to find less challenging ones .
comments on them: TPJC- interestin aye . unfortunately too far . NYJC - great . probably will try to apply for DSA if there is one . PJC - interesting too . probably a 2nd choice after NYJC .

anw, let's go away from this intense topic .
i have fun cleaning up the RCY-YFC room the other day . lots of junks are gone . great . pictures are in my phone . im lazy to upload . some other time i guess . special thanks to Ahmad and Hafirul .

just now, i went to a relative's wedding ceremony . guess who i saw aye .. RAHMAD ! . yikes . somehow he is a relative to me .. idk hw . talking abt it makes me and mad so confused . i think its better we sort it out on wednesday . hah .

well, after a day with heels, going from jemputan to visiting sick uncle, i end up wearing slippers when i went for dinner just now . it's a 3.5inch heels that i walked around in, of course my legs are tired from it ..

i have nth else to update about .
probably will hit the sack or continue reading ecplise .
edward just got me wanting to read on and on .
he is a dream come true . like i say to aryna ,
" if i will ever find someone so perfect as him, i'll marry him nw even though im nt even 16"

nites .
oh farsyun, if im Bella, will you be my edward ?

2009-01-19T22:27:00.008+08:00

hello earthlings .

i have 10mins to blog and upload photos of today . let's go .

well, today the Chinese Bois and Girls from Dahlian, china came and visit us for cultural exchange program .
it was fun and awesome .

After school was coach but ms chee got meeting and so wile waiting for her, we start to get bored and take silly pictures

and farah straighten her hair . nice2 .

picture are in random order but ...
let's just leave the pictures to do the talking .

Hyeeda and SMTPG . figure what that means . yourself .

i was taking her photo and she was taking mine . heh .

c how tired izyan is after taking care of China students .

i take back what i say the very last part of my previous 2 post . somehow i guess i just find him interesting. like how i find SMTPG interesting . but im somehow tawar hati with guys . the feeling aint really there.

well, good nites.

2009-01-18T22:43:00.002+08:00

im so happy ...
i hv completed the 677 pgs of New Moon in 9hrs .
im waiting for ecplise . weee.. loving it, oke pe jadi bookworm

well, im out of here . gorte get ready for tmr .
China student coming to visit and yours truly have to entertain tem .

2009-01-17T19:27:00.010+08:00

hello earthlings .

senior life is tiring . just now, when i was finding ideas for my eng essay at the tuition ctr, i practically had a 10mins nap with the dictionary and thesaurus . omg . and seeing amaths eqns really makes my eyes and brain tired . i just can't wait to finish o's and to have back my life .

there's been alot of things on my shopping list that i want to get, whether it's for myself or for others, just that i don't have the time and allowance have been running low as outside food is really getting expensive .

the other day, i was really chatting with najib . that boy, he changed alot . i really miss the good old najib . i really don't understand why he do all those stuff when he know's its all stupid and wrong . well, he says it's to kill time . -.- you can find other ways to kill time right . how abt getting a good n's cert so that even if you don't want to continue sec 5, you could still go higher nitec rite . isn't that much better than doing all that stuff and ruining and risking your future . haish .

mr danny, i don't really wish to continue .
just too complicated .
you and me are just not suppose to be .
it's hard to have a long distance relationship .
im sorry . let's go our separate ways

don't bother risking your eyesight trying to read . it's not for you so you don't have to read (:

i miss texting mr virgin . he always be the one who filled my night after tuition . texting with him just makes me so relax . quickly get a new phn la . (:

i know now who i want to be with . but current status are just friends . but one never know what will happen the next moment . mr virginY

2009-01-14T21:50:00.003+08:00

hello earthlings . i have 5mins to update my blog . here it goes .

ferst, happy belated 16th birthday, SS freak .

tau la dh 16, no need call me adq2 kan . im turning 16 very soon oke.

did the presentation yest . lower sec was a lil horrible but we managed .

upper sec's horrible turn vegetable . heh . stupid technical problem if not, we would have did it well .

let it past . nvm . btw, i think i lost YH's batik painting . alamak . im feeling so bad . will find a way if i ever could pay him or smth . im so sorry YH !

so, hmmm.. updates aye . idk wads more .
basically my days have just been filled up with sch, ccas, extra class and tuition . i don't even have time for myself . grr ..

guess i'll stop here .

it's never a decision, its a childish mistake. you still have a place but i know it's all too late.

2009-01-12T15:24:00.002+08:00

hello earthlings. its been 10+days that i have not updated this space due to my busy schedule as a graduating student . days are filled up with school,ccas and tuition . arghh . .

anyway. i just gorte let go some stuff over here . at the end of this, readers will think im crazy and tamak .

the other day, emma and i were talking about our exes .
emma: i miss asyran .
me: why the hell did you break up with him the last time .
emma: idk. moment of weakness and i kinde want him back . don't you miss edfie?
me: the first few week, yeah. now, not really . but sometimes i do miss YH.
emma: woah .
me: yeah . breaking up with him was a mistake . if i was still with him, we will already been almost two years already .
...
meanwhile, danny and i, recently went on hiatus . i just want to end the relationship but idk how . he is just too good . he never gets mad and all . idk . im just afraid of karma if i were to break up with him . ohh well, we just see how it goes tomorrow when i meet him .

...

i remember the very date that i meet MF . he is so handsomeeeeeeeeeeeeee . so mr good boy . i have been contacting with him recently, and i now know why he interest me . he reminds me MSBMJ . so boring yet so interesting . haha . he behaves really like MSBMJ . well, MF and i are just mere friends . so im really not cheating on danny right .. heh . and really, the decision of breaking up with danny has nth got to do with MF .

..

tamak kan aku .. haiya . tige skali seyh . dayah2 . tsk3 .

well, im now in the school's comp lab, waiting for the time to practise the Langkawi presentation for tomorrow . wish me luck aye ..
gorte to go (:

2009-01-01T06:12:00.002+08:00

hello earthlings .
its my ferst post for the year 2009 .
wow . its 2009 already !!

well, its 6+am in th mrnin nw . i have not sleep a wink since the previous day . reached home a few hours ago . and the last few hours spent on the bed, not sleeping but talking on the phn with danny ! on the comp since an hour ago . updated fs, bloghop and now posting. jyeah .

i guess i will sleep at 7 ltr, which will make me wake up around 1 or 2 . and jumpstart on my hwk . wahha . will be focusing on the 110 emaths qns . which out of it, i think i only have done 10 or 15 . cool kn . heh .

i really got nth to blog now . bcus my mind is totally blank . guess i'll sleeping nw (:

2008-12-31T16:54:00.003+08:00

happy 14th Birthday Shah Edfie !
i no longer hate you . pending present aye, allowance hven come in .
may she give you the happiness that i'm unable to give you .

happy 15th birthday shikin .
yes, we are not that close, but anw, happy birthday .

and lastly, happy birthday kak aidah !
like every other year, you will receive your present .

hello earthlings.
this will be final post for 2008 (:

tmr alrdy 2009 and i cnt believe im takin my olvl's in less than a yr's time . woah .
SS freak's birthday is like in 14days time . wow . and jyeah 3mths 30days to mine . hahha .

well, while ppl are out celebrating th new year, guess i will just stay home and have some quality fun without even going out of the hse . im just plain lazy to go out with pending hwk nt done . heh .

im missing everybody alrdy . cant wait till fri wen i finally get to meet everybody again . asy, it really will be diff without you around, aft 3yrs in the same class . we will miss your crazyness . everybody,even zani is affected by your departure from the express stream . do take care of yourself and don't forget us . oke, i sound like he is transfering sch . gosh .

im out now.

2008-12-30T19:10:00.003+08:00

see how red my eyes and face is ? effect of too much laughter .

the white shirt girl is just some crazy gal . ignore her. heheh

savouring our KFC during lunch

my emma and the other HIDayah

now dhen im with the trainer head, AFIFAH :D

hello earthlings .

who says meeting are boring ?

not when there's AFifah, The two Hidayahs and Emma .

hehh .

we started off at sch, at around 10+ . empty stomach and an IRritating JH didnt get the meeting anywhere

so off we walked to cwp to take away our lunch and went to our lovely meeting area at civic4th floor(:

while enjoying our food, we talked and laughed so much that my face turned red .

i just cant stand too much laughter . because i will cry later on :D

so, after that, we continue our meeting on CCA Day and Red Cross Orientation Camp .

with stomach full and lots lots of laughter, the outcome is that we complete the skeleton planning of both parts.

when done, we decide to roam around the boring CWP .

and is that Chriss that i saw ? didnt notice clearly, but when i see him, its obvious he was looking at me too .

so me and Afifah, being the Jackass Chairperson and trainer head, respectively, went to metro .

grab a tube dress each and went to the fitting room .

the outcome: too big for me and too small for afifah .

hehe .well, we re4ally did not see the size .

roam and roam, in and out of most of the shop there, frm basement to the 5th floor ..

just wasting time .

bought a friendship ring for myself and Emma .

and finally went to met iraaa and the rest at Sunplaza before heading home .

reach home and sleep . heh .

chatted with the SS freak just now .

was pestering him to do the SS hwk for me instead of teaching me

but failed

" you won't learn if i do it for you! "

of course, i being the Geog freak, didnt see why i should be studying abt the past (:

sry ss freaks .

gorte go now . i really should start my hwk .

sch reopen ths fri . haish .

so are tuitions .
may be posting again tonite . its somebody's birthday tmr . heh .

2008-12-27T22:03:00.002+08:00

hello earthlings .

i have fun yest .

sch in the morning to paint the CUG's banner. i love the way everybody work together . give me a sense of belonging and team . so, while everybody fns the paint job, i went off at arnd 11 to meet my dearRABIA .
was supose to met her at 1045 but yeah late . reach bns and no sign of rabia . she's late again . haiya . so nvm. nice rebonded hair. actually thought i was going to have the same hairstyle as her since her previous one is similar like my current's .
anw, board the train to amk. funny how we miss the stop wen we just chatted and chatted . so alight at bishan and reverse back . purchase the bedtime story movie tix before heading down to MCD to grab some food . walk and walk arnd amk hub .saw ths amazing shop which we spent in it for quite a long time . things over there are really wacky ey .
rabia bought the popcorns and dhen here into the cinema . bodtime story was awesome . 4* ? jyeah .
aft movies, head down to bugis to met danny . with rabia following . cian dier kene jadi lightbulb . heh . tu la srh bwa him^ tknk, malu .
so jyeah . talk alot .with rabia and danny being just silent . until at one point of time i ask danny, " i talk alot eh ? " and danny just go," glad eu realise it ." went quiet for awhile before talking again . hahah . walk around before heading to CT hall . rabia and i took super damn long time to purchase a friendship necklace . thx rabia . its nice . well, head down to LJS aft tt for light meal . and walk around again . head home . bounce back to marina to able us to get sit . me w danny . and rabia alone . ksian dier . fell asleep the whole journey , cun2 wake up when the train reach sembawang . danny send me to my block bfore heading bck to pasir ris . thx for the Eeyore ! weee . i love it .

well, today . watch twilight for the 2nd time . im crazy for robert . superb hawt . planning to watch it for the third time . anybody hven watch and wan to watch it ? txt me .

well, good nite now .

2008-12-25T23:29:00.003+08:00

hello earthlings .

i been lazy to update . so a short one today

last two days, kr belanja me Siam Kitchen and GELARE ice cream . weeee .. thank you my dear senior . nxt time belanja me again aite . hahah .

yest, nth much. just sch- combined UG meeting . end on sour note for some of us . poor thing .

went to cuzin's hse at eunos just now . awesomess ..
just that in the mrt, somehow got an argument with an asoh . lol .
she was really testing my patience , talking at super loud volume to her friend opposite her .
at first, i was being nice, trying to stay cool .
but i just can't take anymore .
just a friendly saying," can you lower your volume ? thank you. "
and she went replying in her dialect, thinking i could'nt understand, "think this mrt is her's huh .."
and i went replying, " ni mrt pun bkn bapak kau punye larh ! " ( this mrt also not your father's wad!)
lucky for her, i reach my stop, if not, it be a bigger argument . haiya .
anw, reach my cuz hse and watch him play his xbox360 . shiok eyh .
well, i love his new bed . pestering dad to purchase similar ones . haha

in the evening, went to arab street with family for a Murtabak feast . couldn't really enjoy it due to a stupid migrain .
reach home and watch teevee. d/l more themes for my phn . yeah2 . and watch Delivering Suzy . wonderful show indeed . i still remember suhaimi's dialogue in the show . heh .
when suzy said she want to eat pizza, suhaimi says, " have you tried Murtabak? if pizza's topping is on top of it, Murtabak's topping is all over it ." heh .

well, gorte get some sleep now . tmr's sch in the morning and gg out with danny in the evening ! weehees (:

and oh, late Merry Christmas to all my friends who celebrate it (:

2008-12-21T22:07:00.002+08:00

I MISS CHARLIE LAAAAAAAA !!

due to curfew prob-.-, im missing the chalet and bbq with my dearest charliens and not forgeting , spending time with my dearDANNY as he is one of charliens like me . and not forgeting, i missing people like my scandalRALPH and my crazy2 student leaders .

well, i sure hope that i may be able to go to the next charlie outing . cse im seriously missing everybody .

2008-12-20T20:00:00.003+08:00

1st pic: dann tryna light the cake . 2nd pic: happy birthday to the 5 bdae bois . 3rd pic: 3 of the 5 birthday bois . 1 late, 1 MIA . 4th pic: shake the thumbler, dann and abid, mix the drink. hehe . 5th pic: some of us in the evening .

more pic will be up . just 5pics nw due to lagging comp .

hello earthlings .

been 5day i MIA .

anw, tues really a blast . picts are abv .

the next few days are spent just tuitions .

gorte buck up ,no choice .

even though i feel my brain power draining out . hah

anw, im lazy to type . and i gtg since abg need the comp.

ps; imy danny . i cnt get eu off my mind .

2008-12-15T23:14:00.006+08:00

SEC 3 MALAY BBQ !

TOMORROW .

I CNT WAIT .

boots and shoes , 10am

I MISS EVERYBODY OH SO MUCH

ecp, here we come!

2008-12-14T20:50:00.002+08:00

re-read my pastposts just now . realise how much dumber then dumb can i be by not moving on . been thinking and talking to my two bestfriend . both says i should really move on . im tried hard and this thoughts abouts him should really stop. i should treasure what's here and let go what's gone . danny's back frm his trip and i swear i will try to love him the proper way now. im sorry that my feelings went topsy-turny wen ure away .

been settling the last few parts of the bbq. thanks Dann for paying for the pit ferst ! i totally forget to pay it . will be going to purchase the raw foods tmr with ina, iraaa and fyq. i really want everything to run smoothly on tues.

the worst wedding reception award goes to the one i went just now. the food's horrible, the service is worst then horrible . no vacant seat. lucky for them that their waitress give me the adult gift or i swear i'll give $ of half what i give just now . chish ..

ltr aft tt, went to queensway to look for my new shoes . up and down the stairs, in and out of shops, being fussy abt stuff is hard .. and finally i found my new school shoes! a purple-white nike. weee . PURPLE ! haha .

anw, im done here . penat la . gd nites ? xD

2008-12-13T22:01:00.002+08:00

updated and most current infos abt SEc3e bbq

Date: 16th of December, tuesday. pls take note . no longer on 17th .
meeting time/place: 10am/bns
Payment: $5
what to bring: ezlink card, payment, extra clothes(if you want), yourself(:
what to wear: nth obscene . thx . gals, be glad if you cld clad in at least 3/4 pants

current prob: the list of going and nt advisable to go .
of course, netballers, you guys are invited. and luthfi too . just 2-3 gals, it be advisable for you gals not to go, for the sake of people's happiness. thx .

so yeah . that should be the final one ! c u guys soon .

----
went to adq's new sch today at bradell. its damn hell big . wanted to c arif there but he wasnt on duty so no .

dhen head to bishan to just kill time before going to town . roam a whole big round to look for 2009's sch bag. nth seem to intrest me seriously . so head to bugis. went to zinc, and presto, found it. i simply love the outstanding clr. haha . and head hm thru 980.

yest; started tuition. weehee . all the way frm5+ to 8+ at marsiling . chiong on amaths . gorte pass qualifying test . it was fun . covered chpt1&2, and im proud tt i did it . sure to be spending most of my 2009's evening there since olvl is near.

idioticLover, i really hate myself for not hating you but loving you. those 3mth really the best. i really want it back. coming 18th will be 1mth without you . i miss you seriously . talked to your friend just now. really confirm about your unfaithfulness that i heard. and goodness it's true. why oh why. really what's my mistakes. i don't really understand. if you were to really love your ex so much, why did you let me fall in love with you. why did you come searching for me.
idiotic lover, aku benci yang aku masih cinta kamu .

2008-12-11T22:53:00.004+08:00

remember this?

he's the ferst guy to do that .

i swear i miss those times

but why all's thats nice always turn just so ugly?

good nite.

2008-12-11T00:00:00.002+08:00

hello earthlings . here i am doing the post at 12am, as most of the time (:

today been oke . spent the day planning the bbq outing for sec3E . so far the plan will be as this :
date: 17th December
venue: ecp, most prob carpark E .
time: arnd 10am cse janji melayu will result in meeting at 11 (:
meeting place: as usual, bns
payment: $5 per person, inc; drinks, pit, food, misc items .
attire: anything not so obscene . tque . may want to bring extra clothing if you guys want to swim
what to bring: payment, extra attire(if you want), yourself, ezlink card and perhaps extra $

aku bored tanpa danny's msges due to he being away. talking about this, i been thinking so much today about him, about me, about sewrw-which explains the previous post. i really dnt want to hurt danny. he just so Very nice to me. which is so opposite of sewrw . yes, he did treat me nice, but he had let me down-a huge reason for me to hate and forget about him . but why, why can't i still . thinking so much that i almost cut my hand when i broke a glass tonite. i do love danny. but somehow, long distance relationship don't really work out for me. what was i thinking? shouldn't i have learnt my lesson about this ? urghh . i hate myself for the fact that im loving the wrong guy more. this just got me all so frustrated about.

2008-12-10T23:26:00.004+08:00

sewrw, why is it so fcukin' hard to hate you .

Sungguh tak kusangka kau berpaling tadah
Setelah lamanya menjalinkan cinta
Dalam diam-diam kau sudah berpunya
Tanpa aku menyedari semuanya

Aku mendoakan agar kau bahagia
Bersama si dia insan yang kau suka
Percintaan kita tak sampai ke mana
Setakat di bibir saja sayang

Kau bina mahligai dari air mata
Yang jatuh berderai di wajah sepiku
Hancurnya hatiku bisa tak terkata
Terhumban rasa diriku

Oh aduhai ku masih ingati
Janji manis dan saat romantis
Kau pintaku supaya setia
Akhirnya kau yang berubah

Oh tuhanku tabahkan hatiku
Temukan ku dengan ketenangan
Jiwa ini dibelasah rindu tetapi apa dayaku

Kucuba pejam mata tapi tak terlena
Kerana ku masih teringat padamu
Begitu payahnya nak ku melupakan
Pernahkah engkau fikirkan oh sayang...

the song that never fail to make me cry D:

"by loving you still and betraying him is a big trouble that i create for myself . i hate you ! "

2008-12-08T23:17:00.001+08:00

morning; paternal grans' hse
early morning chaos thx to my makcik2 .
joke around with 1st cuzin . she can really joke . well, to the extend of mocking people down .tsk
heh .
eat . really nice2 food . im so gonner gain weight .

afternoon; maternal grans' hse
huggies with my dear e-raa
i love her larhs .
well, eat again .
compared to paternal's side,
over at maternal's is more peaceful and calm
i love being there .

today is 081208 .
if you didn't let me down
today's our 4th .
but,
When it started out, no this relationship was unhealthy
You broke the code
Never thought that you would stoop so low
You've got me flyin' solo
-flying solo, chris brown ft dre

"letting the past lagged you behind is the worst self-punishment"
-dyaaa :D

well, gorte head to bed now .
n those who actually pay attention to my tagbox .
yes, danny is my bf oke .
n tt the only info abt him tt i'm going to reveal .

2008-12-08T22:50:00.000+08:00

yesterday;

boredom leads to photog-taking(:

slept at 2 the night b4 so was thnking of sleeping bck aft breakfst . bt birthday gurl (below) texted me,saying there's class aft all . but we being the gd devils turn up late bcus we were slacking. n we only enter because belle has to pay her fees . heh . got release early, went to aries to purchase accessories . went to hp shop to survey new phn . n walk to northpoint . otw, slack under blk . was suppose to met chanchan( belle's bestfren) but no . so we walk n talk .

reach hm & help mum w raye spring cleaning.

birthday kiss oke tk ? heh .

dyaaa & pig :D

will be bck again 4 today's update

2008-12-07T00:40:00.005+08:00

hello earthlings .

ferst forthmost,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BEBELLCIA babe !you're 17 now . may our 2yrs frienship last longlonglong . weehees .
stay pretty oke . i love you, eurasian-malay-indian gilerbabe . ahahas .

i been on my lazy-to-blog days .
so, wnt be updating daily . hah .

well, smth happen 3days back .
an amazement .
we fight we break up,
we kiss we made up
-hotncold, katy perry
shall not go much into that .
just that now i change my status .
fullstop .

n to 'soulmate', you dissapoint me yet again .
the fact that you really try to ignore me to make me forget you
is so Childish and saddens me to see you do that .

this holiday have been a real bitch
i really want to go out and about .
but parents keep asking to stay home and Study .
haha.
can i at least enjoy the rest of my 2008 ?
before stressing for 2009's olvl !
homework have been piling up, seriously .
curse the people-who-are-so-happy-to-torture-us-with-homeworks.
i knw eu ppl mean well
but its quality do gd not QUANTITY .

n to my dear aryna ,
that stranger is killing you silently. please oh please, keep the memories, put it aside, delete your photogs of him in your phn, and move on. those wonderful times with him will always remain a thing of the past oke .
he's a stealer; who steals your happiness
he's a murderer; who kills the crazy you
he's a crook; who gives you hope and runaway with it too .
in conclusion, he's evil; i hate him for making you miserable .
i love you babe . takaire and have fun at Taman Permata

"you saying the truth hurts but you denying the truth hurts more" -Dyaaa :D

i guess i stop here . good nights olrite .

2008-12-03T22:59:00.002+08:00

i believe everybody have soulmates . don't you think so ?

for a start, i thnk i found mine, bcse every guy is no match for him, he is the only one i keep thinking about. the best of all, he never hurt me purposely.

well, to my dear, don't give up on yourself. he may be the most nicest person you ever met in your 15yrs of life but he aint your soulmate, so that explains all. yours will come by, i'm sure way better then him olrite . cheer up . let go og him and concentrate on studies . nxt yr is our final year, rmb ?

and to all my friends, who keep having rejects, don't worry. is either the person who reject you is stupid or blind or the point here is that, he/she may not be your soulmate.

and really, if he/she is your soulmate, nth will separate your from him/her . no worries (:

today;

i had really lots of fun . wake up nearly afternoon, had late breakfast and bath. went out to yishun to get my new nets card since mummy lost my old one . then went to salon . finally, been waiting so long. i'm lovin' my new hair . haha . spent about 3hours, bley tertdo-tdo aku dibuatnye. haha. but was pleased with the results.

after asar, went civic to meet my babe . crack up alot. some guys were like staring at us. tak suke kiter bising bley tup telinga atau keluar . finally start on homework . did physics. tt 1 hwk gone. been thinking to start on amaths that really pilling up . haha.

after that, went to banquet to get our dinner, roam around cwp and HSH .

when are you coming back from genting larhh .. i miss you greatly much .